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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part V

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I believe it is in noticing the small, incremental shifts in awareness that opens a pathway for us to feel into finer and finer nuances of sensations…and that ultimately opens us to experience ourselves as subtle “waves” of vibrations.

As you begin to notice the overall resonance of the body, you may also start to notice the mind shifting, going into an inwardly focused state as it attunes to the subtle vibrations of the body.

Now, without conscious intention to feel deeper and deeper into subtlety, the mind remains at a certain depth and at some point is distracted by thoughts, memories, outside distractions, etc.

However, with strong intention to maintain one-pointed focus on subtle sensations of the body, you begin to experience fleeting moments of “no-thought,” when for a moment there is just a simple “noticing” of the overall feeling of the body.

I have found it important to continue holding the intention to go deeper and deeper into the overall vibration (hum) of the body. For me, when feeling into the “hum,” it seems that the vibration itself has a way of holding, gripping the mind into one-pointed focus.

This is a subtlety of the Life Force, that when awakened, seems to activate the body to spontaneously move and adjust in order to manage the increasing “voltage” of energy moving through the spine and rest of the body.

As you gain more facility and capacity for this ever-increasing “current,” the spontaneous movements of the body become more and more like a beautiful and delicate dance of Life Force in the body!

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part IV

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What do I mean by the “underlying vibration” of the body? When sitting in meditation pose, the mind can easily focus upon the overall sensation of the body. Now, with the intention to feel slightly deeper into subtle vibrations, the overall sensation of the body can be felt as a “wave” or “field” of vibration.

This is a delicate balance point, during which the mind, if it does not “get” the importance or significance of continuing to feel into finer and finer vibrations, may lose the connection and momentum to experience the primal “magnetic/contorting” flow of Life Force that lies just below the surface of our familiar states of consciousness.

By going slightly deeper into subtle sensations, there is a visceral experience of exquisitely fine forces at play in our bodies and especially in the spine. The paradox is that, in my opinion, it doesn’t require years and years of meditation practice or any superhuman feats of concentration.

However, in my experience, I spent years and years in meditation practice without making deep connection with the subtle Life Force (Kundalini) because I did not truly “get” the importance of feeling deeper and deeper into seemingly insignificant sensations…until they resolved to the overall resonance of the body.

My mind was busy with meditation practice/technique…disconnected from truly feeling deeply. Of course, the purpose of meditation technique is to connect the awareness with subtle vibrations/sensations and the Divine Spirit…but in looking back at my “practice,” I realize now that I created a thin “veil” that insulated me from feeling deeply.

Perhaps it was not so much a problem of meditation technique, but rather my non-consideration of feeling deeply. I believe there was also an issue of my “day-to-day” mind and habitual patterns that stayed within bounds of what was familiar and safe, no matter how much and how long I meditated.

I am also very much aware that it is not enough to instruct myself or anyone else to “feel deeper and deeper” into subtle vibrations. The connecting piece, the “Aha!” moment occurs when you truly “get” and viscerally feel that any sensation (no matter how seemingly insignificant) can be felt in relation to a wider and wider vibration or resonance of feeling. There is also a noticing of how the mind will automatically go into trance states…that focuses upon finer and finer vibrations/sensations.

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part III

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I believe it is important to experience what we might think of as “bad habits” from a different perspective…namely a different feeling perspective. Let me explain what I mean. Normally, our habitual patterns of behaviors get played out again and again, with little or no resistance to change the patterns.

This is all fine and good if the habits are of a beneficial nature…healthy eating habits, regular exercise routine, positive temperament, etc. However, if the habits are not so beneficial, then it can be quite torturous to feel helplessly caught in the currents of bad thought and behavior patterns that we seem to have little or no power to redirect.

A different approach that I am suggesting here is in feeling the overall sense of yourselves from a perspective that observes the “agitation” of desires with the intention to follow the activating desire impulses to finer and more subtle vibrations.

In other words, in following the activating sensations (of any desire) to their point of finer and finer subtlety, a different perspective of the impulses is experienced, one that allows them to be shifted/transmuted, through resonance, with the vastly wider underlying vibration of the body. This “underlying” vibration of the body has a way of absorbing the agitation of desires, just as the Ocean is able to absorb the largest and most boisterous of rivers.

Once you have experienced desire impulses from the perspective of consciously observing, consciously feeling their subtle vibratory nature, then you will also understand their relationship to the wider field or current of “Life Force.”

In other words, the impulse/vibration/sensation of desires can be felt in relation to a more expansive vibration that does not get stuck in one area of the body. This allows the “agitation” of desires to be absorbed and transmuted by the wider and deeper field of the overall sensation of Being.

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part II

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There are subtle sensations connected with desires (of any kind), along with their corresponding thoughts and memories. In learning to transmute desires, for me it has been helpful to feel deeply into the sensations and then to follow the sensations to finer and finer nuances of subtlety.

I have found that in following the sensations of desires (for example, the sex impulse), to deeper and deeper levels of subtlety, the impulse seems to get absorbed into the wider “current” of the overall vibration of the body.

Of course, this process also involves noticing the habit patterns of thoughts/memories and their connections with the desires…not so simple or easy, as the momentum of habitual thoughts and behaviors, over a lifetime, makes it difficult to go against the “current.”

However, by noticing the sensations of desires as they first begin to percolate up in the awareness, we are given an opportunity to quickly “short-circuit” our usual patterns of thoughts and behaviors…if we make the strong intention to do so!

When the impulse of desires first begin, the current is weak and we have the choice of following the pathway of the impulse to its source, which is a very different way of connecting with the impulses.

This different perspective on the sensations of desires allows us a way to connect them with the wider underlying vibration of the body, which diffuses the desire into the wider current of the Bliss Resonance.

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part I

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The mind constantly seeks engagement with memories, desires, social interactions, pleasures, distractions, etc….and it avoids (disengages from) things that it dislikes, things that cause pain/discomfort.

The “day-to-day” mind/consciousness goes through the cycles and patterns of behaviors that it has grown familiar with over the course of a lifetime. Some of these patterns/habits of thinking and acting may not be so beneficial: addictions, negative behaviors, etc.

Whenever I find myself feeling stuck in habitual patterns of thinking/feeling/acting, if I allow myself to notice where my energy is in the body, it is usually “stuck” in the lower energy centers (the lower chakras)…and this stuck-ness creates agitation in body and mind…and this is when the mind can so easily slip into subconscious realms of desires, of sex, moodiness, past memories, addictions, etc.

I think it is important to recognize the sensations connected with “stuck energy.” By noticing the sensations/feelings involved, you will also begin to notice the thought patterns involved.

With habitual patterns of thinking/behaving, there is usually little resistance to the strong current of the habit. There is little or no effort to notice the subtle energies of what moves us to fall again and again to habit patterns that may not be healthy or of benefit to us.

I believe resisting bad habits with just the mind is not as helpful as learning to feel into the activating energies of what is “tempting” us to fall into habitual patterns of behaving/thinking in the first place.

Every desire has a kind of agitating impulse in the body. If we do not allow ourselves to feel deeply into these subtle impulses, we deprive ourselves the opportunity of lifting desires consciously to a wider and more beneficial playing field.

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