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Lessons of Lyme Disease, Part V

As mentioned in the Part IV, when going through the daily challenges of Lyme Disease, there were many periods of just enduring as best as I was able to…and at a certain point there came a realization that I was no match for its devastating power…at least from the limited perspective of thinking that I was fighting a bacteria/spirochete that required only the correct application of some antibiotic (doxycyclene).

A major shift in perspective, in my relationship with my sense of self, with my life force, and with my day-to-day “reality” was being called forth. Dealing with Lyme Disease required a very different way of listening and feeling, that “tuned” into much deeper levels of subtle sensations, far beyond what would have previously been considered normal and familiar.

With Lyme Disease, there was a sense of being in a different territory of “reality.” I was “no longer in Kansas” so-to-speak. I remember oftentimes waking up in the mornings, feeling not only exhausted, but with very strange thoughts and words (as well as bizarre sensations) going through my mind and body, with the distinct impression that the thoughts were not mine.

That I came to feel that I was no match for its power is not to say that I felt helpless. It seems that in learning to feel and to listen in a deeper way, my sense of “reality” shifted to include not only dimensions wherein the Lyme “entity” resided, but also where helpful Spirits offered assistance.

This is what I have come to believe: with chronic illnesses such as Lyme Disease (as well as pernicious cancers), there is an intelligent (and malignant) “entity” aspect involved, one that might be considered “vampiric” in nature.

In my experience, when I first contracted Lyme Disease, while in high fever, I saw and conversed with the Lyme entity. I asked it, “Why are you doing this to me?” It responded, “This is what we do.” It seemed to have a kind of “hive” consciousness. I also intuited its superior intelligence…devoid of any familiar human reference point. Although it was bipedal and seemed to have a kind of clothing, I felt that I was connecting with something very alien.

Although this connection was short-lived, with its verbal answer to my question there was also a “How dare you ask!” communication that I felt. I thought it interesting that, although it was not wearing any head gear, I noticed that it’s head had the very interesting shape of a Nazi helmet! Its clothing, its whole “vibe” was cold, metallic, totally devoid of any human reference points of warmth and compassion.

Although it would be easy to dismiss the above experience as just a hallucination of my feverish mind, to me the experience allowed me access to previously unfamiliar dimensions, ones that included not only horribly demonic realms, but heavenly ones as well.

In a way, my “hallucination” allowed me an opening, a way to connect with subtle vibrations and sensations that would ultimately guide me towards healing.

Hallucination or not, the experience gave me a very different perspective from which to deal with Lyme Disease. It gave me an understanding that there isn’t a one-size-fits-all” path to healing, not for something as intelligent as the Lyme entity!

The experience prompted me to listen and to feel in ways that I may not have considered previous to my having contracted Lyme Disease.

(To be continued)

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Listening to the Intuitive Voice, Part III

When listening to music, especially the kind that is easy to dance to, it is not difficult to “get” the idea of being “danced by music.” Now, the idea of being “danced by Spirit” is just a progressively deeper dive into the subtleties of sensations and vibrations created by the movement of life force in the body.

What is being offered here is an initial entry point, using music and dance, to access finer and finer sensations/vibrations that move through the body…and especially the spine. This approach requires a simple noticing of sensations/vibrations of the body and then tuning into the underlying subtlety of whatever is felt.

As you listen/feel into the music, notice how the body naturally wants to move and sway in rhythm to its cadence. However, before getting up to dance, feel into the subtle sensations, into the grand central source that activates the desire to dance.

Then, as you tune into subtlety, notice how the mind naturally goes into deep meditative trance as it tracks finer and finer sensations. Noticing the shift in awareness is important as there is an accompanying inner acknowledgment of the difference in consciousness…from outwardly distracted thinking to inwardly focused moments of “no-thought.”

This acknowledgment of the shift in awareness is important because it provides the momentum to go deeper still. In other words, the noticing and acknowledgment of the mind going into trance provides impetus and reminder to go deeper…and deeper…and deeper yet into subtlety.

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Listening to the Intuitive Voice, Part II

Now, when feeling into any emotion, whether it be a slight irritation, anger…or full blown sadness/depression, the approach of not ignoring the energetic, sensation aspect of feelings is being suggested here: tuning into the visceral, overall vibration of the body when feeling low, in a funk…and then….

Here’s what seems to usually happen: We get emotionally triggered by some circumstance or incident and then the feeling and thought patterns go ‘round and ‘round the gravitational pull of our hurt feelings. We get stuck in thought and feeling loops.

However, something very special happens when we feel into the overall sensation of the body, tuning into the subtle underlying vibration of all feelings, the resonance or hum of Being.

When the mind/awareness connects with the subtle underlying hum, the habitual “circling the drain” feeling/thinking is short-circuited…and then here’s what happens: by the simple focusing upon the subtle overall sensation of the body, the mind is offered a window of opening to “shift tracks,” to one that leads into a deeper trance/swoon.

Now, in allowing the mind to “shift tracks,” the mind is guided to follow the prompts of the body to move, shake, vibrate in ways that dissolves and expels the energy of moods. There are many traditions, techniques and approaches that speak towards this…and the effectiveness in these approaches occur when there is an inner “getting,” when there is the visceral experience of being “danced” by the energetic prompts of the life force moving through the body.

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part V

When feeling into the overall sensation of the body, notice how the eyes will naturally lift upwards. There is a subtle sensation (in the crown area) created, but not difficult to experience. There is no need for the use of will to lift the eyes…it is just a matter of noticing and feeling the natural uplift that takes place.

I have found that using intention and will to lift the eyes upward (as sometimes suggested in meditation technique), can result in headache…when too much tension builds up in the area of the eyes.

Again, by simply relaxing the eyes and feeling into the overall sensation of the body, the eyes lift by themselves, as though drawn upwards by the gentle “lifting up” energies of the body…and not just the eyes. You may notice how the spine will also, of itself, lift upwards, as though to allow the lifting up energies an unimpeded pathway to the crown area.

The subtleties of the uplifting currents, when felt into, are like the long strands of a spiderweb stretched out and shimmering in the gentle wind, moving like silken threads, reverberating deliciously in the spine!

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part III

Any position/posture of the body can be explored to infinite nuance of sensations…and by relaxing and surrendering to the fine vibrations/currents moving through the body, the Divine Dance of micro movements is activated. There is then a noticing of the body moving/dancing, adjusting automatically to the rise and fall of energy.

As the mind/attention focuses upon the current, there is also a noticing of how the mind is drawn inwardly, as though “captured” by the current. It is important to notice and acknowledge the dynamics of what happens when the mind focuses upon subtle sensations, upon the inner current of Life Force.

Another way of thinking about how the mind can be “captured,” is to understand and experience the mind going into trance when using repetition and rhythm…such as when chanting or singing; or when losing oneself in dance.

Ordinarily we don’t pay much attention to what happens when the mind gets drawn into repetitive drumming, or when we surrender ourselves in dance; or when going on long runs. However, if there is an intention to witness the body/mind/psyche going into trance, then the experience of noticing subtle shifts of awareness becomes an open pathway where each subtlety of sensation is like a “breadcrumb” leading to the next subtlety of sensation.

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part II

Feeling into subtle sensations is simple enough for anyone to do…and it is a concept that is simple enough to understand. That we can feel any sensation at all offers us a doorway, an opening into realms of breathtaking beauty that we miss only for lack of considering what lies just beneath familiar sensations.

Once this initial resistance (to feeling subtle sensations) is released, it is just a matter of feeling deeper and deeper into what seems to naturally open up. In other words, one release opens up to another, to another, to another…

At a certain point, the experience of the subtle Life Force might be felt as a kind of liquid (nectar) moving through the spine, through the “field” of the body. I think of it as “nectar” because there is a kind of visceral sweetness in its movements through the body.

The buildup of this nectar in the body can create feelings of giddiness that, if ignored, can build up to uncomfortable and even painful areas of stuck energy. Now, the body has different ways of working with this “overflow”: shaking, twitching, flailing, etc. Ultimately, as one learns to relax into this energy, the flow of this nectar becomes like a beautiful dance through the body.

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part I

When sensations of giddiness (feeling of “ants-in-the-pants”) reach a certain threshold, the body will automatically start moving in ways to release/channel/balance the buildup of this energy. Similarly, when Kundalini begins to awaken in the spine, the body knows how to move/adjust/release these energies in dance-like movements…if we allow Her to lead.

This requires a deeper kind of listening and feeling into the subtleties of how She wishes to move and posture Herself in the body. If we don’t pay attention to the buildup of Her energy, the “dance” can turn into an uncomfortable and grotesque flailing/shaking expulsion of Her energy that gets stuck in certain areas of the body.

In relationship to Kundalini, the body can be thought of as a conduit of Her Electricity, a distillation of Her Essence…essence of finer and finer energies. In surrendering to Her lead, the body will know how to dance, “squeezing” upward the Divine Nectar, where in the heart the energy is further distilled/churned.

This “dance” with Kundalini creates a very different relationship with our Life Force, with the vibration of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being. When the awareness is drawn inwardly upon subtlety of sensations, it seems there is an automatic expansion/flow of energy…which then creates feelings of giddiness, activating the body to move/adjust in ways that balances out the energies.

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