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Surrendering to the Cosmic Dance, Part IX

Ideals such as enlightenment, God, samadhi, satori, spiritual freedom, etc. may be lofty and worthy concepts to include in prayers/intentions, but not so practical when it comes to simply being, feeling in the moment.

When feeling into the overall vibration/sensation of the moment, any expectation or lofty assumption regarding the experience may create an unnecessary and unwanted barrier in the primal experience of Being.

There is a divine simplicity in feeling into finer and finer sensations…no expectations, assumptions, judgements, etc. Just the experience of the overall sensation of Being!

At first the mind may resist, defaulting to habits of constantly engaging with outer desires and distractions. In other words, it “bounces” around in constant motion, disengaged from the underlying subtle currents.

It resists going against the tidal pull of the habitual patterns that keeps the mind in perpetual engagement with the superficial and boisterous waves of the Earthly drama.

How to disengage the mind from its preoccupation with the superficial drama? I believe it is important to understand the concept of “pattern disrupt.” What I mean by this is that so long as we remain on the surface of habitual thinking and feeling, the momentum of habits will keep us caught in the “patterns” of superficial thinking and feeling.

Now, the idea of “pattern disrupt” is one that tunes us to a different “resonance” or “pattern” of consciousness…mainly subtle sensations. Feeling into subtle sensations provides the “pattern disrupt.”

Pattern disrupt provides a different perspective…one that switches from being “thought-centered” to “feeling-centered.” With the intention to feel into finer and finer sensations, the momentum of awareness shifts away from superficial “bouncing around.”

It shifts to one that is able to not only observe the flittering of the mind, but to one that is also able to feel the subtle currents deep in the spine.

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Focusing the Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part VIII

Awakening Higher Self, art by Bruce Manaka

Awakening Higher Self, art by Bruce Manaka

I spent many years practicing meditation techniques without going very deep. I chalked it up to the thought that I wasn’t trying hard enough. However, it seemed that “doubling down” on my efforts also did not help. I had some nice experiences, but it was quite evident that something was missing in my approach to meditation practice. I was not connecting with the subtle currents in the spine that now seems so overwhelmingly obvious.

In looking back at my years of meditation practice, there are some glaringly obvious points that I would like share. The intention that I held for meditating was to attain the ultimate freedom: oneness with the Divine, enlightenment, Satori, Samadhi, etc. and it seemed reasonable that dedicating my life to the spiritual path in an ashram was the quickest way to fulfill this intention.

However, I did not remain in the ashram. In the intervening years, my meditation practice of technique shifted to one that seemed to be more like a dance…a dance of micro movements, initiated by subtle sensations felt deep in the core of the spine.

These fine currents, which are so obvious now, were inaccessible so long as my meditative approach was centered in technique. Also (and paradoxically), once you are connected with the “micro” currents in the spine, then meditation technique can take you even deeper. It’s just that technique cannot seem to activate the initial connection.

For me, leaving the ashram and all that led up to that event, in a strange way provided a deep psychic “hit” that seemed to initiate my first glimpses of roiling and chaotic, primal energies previously hidden from me.

My life and spiritual world view came crashing down and in its place were wild and chaotic sensations intimating of infinitely deeper and subtler vibrations. In the years following, meditation “practice” became more and more like a spontaneous dance with subtlety…with Divine Subtlety and one in which the Divine takes the lead.

In the “crashing down” and ultimate release of my spiritual world view,  spiritual philosophy, technique and structure were no longer of much importance. There was/is only the deepening of the sublime dance, a surrendering to the flow of how the Divine Subtlety wishes to express in the body/mind/psyche!

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