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Focusing the Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part VIII

Awakening Higher Self, art by Bruce Manaka

Awakening Higher Self, art by Bruce Manaka

I spent many years practicing meditation techniques without going very deep. I chalked it up to the thought that I wasn’t trying hard enough. However, it seemed that “doubling down” on my efforts also did not help. I had some nice experiences, but it was quite evident that something was missing in my approach to meditation practice. I was not connecting with the subtle currents in the spine that now seems so overwhelmingly obvious.

In looking back at my years of meditation practice, there are some glaringly obvious points that I would like share. The intention that I held for meditating was to attain the ultimate freedom: oneness with the Divine, enlightenment, Satori, Samadhi, etc. and it seemed reasonable that dedicating my life to the spiritual path in an ashram was the quickest way to fulfill this intention.

However, I did not remain in the ashram. In the intervening years, my meditation practice of technique shifted to one that seemed to be more like a dance…a dance of micro movements, initiated by subtle sensations felt deep in the core of the spine.

These fine currents, which are so obvious now, were inaccessible so long as my meditative approach was centered in technique. Also (and paradoxically), once you are connected with the “micro” currents in the spine, then meditation technique can take you even deeper. It’s just that technique cannot seem to activate the initial connection.

For me, leaving the ashram and all that led up to that event, in a strange way provided a deep psychic “hit” that seemed to initiate my first glimpses of roiling and chaotic, primal energies previously hidden from me.

My life and spiritual world view came crashing down and in its place were wild and chaotic sensations intimating of infinitely deeper and subtler vibrations. In the years following, meditation “practice” became more and more like a spontaneous dance with subtlety…with Divine Subtlety and one in which the Divine takes the lead.

In the “crashing down” and ultimate release of my spiritual world view,  spiritual philosophy, technique and structure were no longer of much importance. There was/is only the deepening of the sublime dance, a surrendering to the flow of how the Divine Subtlety wishes to express in the body/mind/psyche!

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Tuning Into the Subtlety of Sensations, Part V

What is meant by “feeling into, connecting with subtle vibration?” It can be a simple “tuning into” the overall vibration or sensation of the body. This requires an initial sitting still and being attentive to what is felt in the body, in the moment.

For many, including longtime meditators, for lack of feeling deeply and not following sensations that are so easily accessible, they cut themselves off from the ecstatically blissful currents that permeate the subtle realms!

What happens, I believe (and this was true for myself), is that the relationship with our sense of being, with emotions, feelings, etc., over the long stretch of daily life, defaults to the patterns and habits of thinking and feeling that we’ve grown accustomed to and familiar with.

And because of the familiarity and “daily-ness” of life (and meditations), it may not dawn upon us to even consider the sensations/vibrations that are subtle and just below the vibrations of what we are familiar with.

I would dare say that anyone of you who are reading these words, in this very moment, can access very fine, subtle sensations in the body…sensations that you normally would not give any serious attention to. However, for the sake of exploration and for all the new discoveries that can ensue, try this…feeling into subtle sensation and then following the sensations deeper and deeper.

Here is what usually happens: the mind (or sense of “I-ness”) resists, wanting to stay in its range of what is familiar. It may even argue: “I already know how to feel deeply, what’s the big deal? What is the benefit? Why should I do this? I already know how to meditate.” With this kind of resistance, the “exploration” does not go very deep, as the mind short-circuits any effort to even begin.

The mind also gets in the way in the sense of the ideals, expectations and preconceived notions that it has around concepts of spirituality, enlightenment, kundalini awakening, etc.

All too often, the mind/ego expects a kind of “Big Bang! Big Wow!” experience in the realms of “awakening” and “enlightenment.” These expectations and preconceived notions have a way of dampening the heart’s natural sensitivity to fine vibrations.

It just requires a simple feeling into the overall sensations of the body and tuning into what is just below the surface of what we might consider to be our “normal” sensitivity. It need not be very deep at first… just deep enough for the awareness to connect with an overall sensation that is just below what we are usually accustomed to. This is not difficult to do.

Note: In this beginning phase of feeling into subtlety, it is important to not analyze or judge the sensation or experience. Just notice and acknowledge that you DO have the ability to connect/feel into subtlety! The next step is to continue going deeper and following vibration from one point of subtlety to the next.

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