What happens after you clap your hands and then feel deeper and deeper into the slowly diminishing vibrations, as suggested in Part IX of “Focusing the Mind for Deeper Meditation”? You may notice how long you are able to track the vibrations, even as they get finer and finer (less noticeable).
By continuing to track the vibrations, you may come to a point of feeling the underlying “buzz” or “Hum” of the energetic field of the body. In experiencing the subtle Hum as can be felt in the hands, you will also feel its connectivity with the forearms, upper arms, shoulders, neck, etc. The whole body will be felt as a wave of sensation/vibration.
Alongside, or perhaps just below this subtle vibration, there is an exquisitely fine sensation that imparts a beguiling, infinitely nuanced response in the centermost space of the body…the Bliss Resonance!
The body/mind/psyche that relaxes, surrenders to this resonance, easily accesses meditative trance and begins to move and adjust in dance-like micro movements, which includes spontaneous twisting, spiraling, contortions of the body.
The inner witnessing mind learns to stay out of the way and not interrupt the Divine Dance that takes place. Any efforts to control or guide the experience can cut your connection with the subtle Bliss Resonance.
Any resistance to the strong current moving through the field of the body can result in grotesque flailing of body and limbs, especially if the body and nervous system are not prepared to receive the strong voltage of the awakening Life Force…Kundalini!
In these blog posts, “Focusing the Mind for Deeper Meditation,” I speak often of “subtle currents” and feeling deeper and deeper into “subtle sensations.” My intention here is to share some things that I did not fully understand or “get” in my years of meditation practice and that prevented me from connecting with the exquisitely fine “currents” in the central core of the spine that are now so obviously apparent.
What does it mean to feel into subtle sensations, subtle currents? This is not a difficult concept to understand or to viscerally experience. An example of this approach is this: clap your hands loudly three times and then place them on your laps, palms up. Feel into the vibrations/sensations. Continue feeling as the sensations get softer and more “subtle.”
Take note of how you can track these subtle sensations for long periods of time, much longer than you would normally ever consider.
It is important to acknowledge to yourself that you have the ability to feel deeply…to feel into subtlety. Now, the following point is important to “get.” As you feel into subtle vibrations/sensations, you may find inner resistance of the mind. It wants to do what it is habitually familiar with doing…engaging with thoughts, desires, memories, etc.
So, although you may know that you have the ability to connect with subtle sensations, the mind may resist with thoughts of “So what? What’s the big deal with subtle sensations?”
Here is the big deal with subtle sensations: As you feel deeply into fine vibrations and sensations, you want to take notice and acknowledge those fleeting moments (flashes really) when the mind is not moving…when the mind is in the state of “no-thought.”
While tracking and feeling into subtle sensations, you may also notice how the mind continues “firing off,” engaging in thoughts…but you may also notice the thinking mind experienced as though from a distance…and with occasional flashes of “no-thought.” Just sensation!
These “flashes” are important to notice and acknowledge, even if at first they do not seem like a big deal. It is a huge deal, because these fleeting moments of “no-thought” that flash on and off through periods of meditation will ultimately reveal/impart the underlying “Hum” of the body that is connected with the Bliss Resonance!
When you begin to recognize the subtle forces at play…the push/pull/squeeze/twisting dynamics of the Life Force moving in the body, especially in the spine, then you will recognize the great gift you have been given that allows connection with the Divine Current!
It is the gift of being able to “tune-in” quickly to the proverbial “needle-in-a-haystack” of the exquisitely fine Bliss Resonance” vibrating deliciously in the spine!
The “Divine Current” can be thought of as a high frequency field of vibration that, through resonance, begins to shift the “density” of the body to a finer vibration. You will also find that whatever “lifts” and shifts the vibration of the body automatically tunes the mind to the higher frequency…again through principles of resonance.
The paradox is how close and easily accessible these subtle vibrations/sensations are! Your mind has the ability and capacity to naturally and quickly shift to a deeply focused, one-pointed attunement with the subtle currents.
In a nutshell, feeling into the fine sensations of the body (especially in the spine) has a way of focusing the mind. These moments might be fleeting in the beginning, but the visceral experience of connecting with finer and finer sensations gives you an inner acknowledgement (an inner “aha!”) of what happens when you “touch” the underlying sensation of the body/mind/psyche!
The experience is exquisitely subtle, but it is also a “big deal” because you recognize how very close and easily accessible the vibration has always been. It also represents a major shift in your relationship with your Life Force and your approach to meditation.
There are subtle sensations connected with desires (of any kind), along with their corresponding thoughts and memories. In learning to transmute desires, for me it has been helpful to feel deeply into the sensations and then to follow the sensations to finer and finer nuances of subtlety.
I have found that in following the sensations of desires (for example, the sex impulse), to deeper and deeper levels of subtlety, the impulse seems to get absorbed into the wider “current” of the overall vibration of the body.
Of course, this process also involves noticing the habit patterns of thoughts/memories and their connections with the desires…not so simple or easy, as the momentum of habitual thoughts and behaviors, over a lifetime, makes it difficult to go against the “current.”
However, by noticing the sensations of desires as they first begin to percolate up in the awareness, we are given an opportunity to quickly “short-circuit” our usual patterns of thoughts and behaviors…if we make the strong intention to do so!
When the impulse of desires first begin, the current is weak and we have the choice of following the pathway of the impulse to its source, which is a very different way of connecting with the impulses.
This different perspective on the sensations of desires allows us a way to connect them with the wider underlying vibration of the body, which diffuses the desire into the wider current of the Bliss Resonance.
The mind is like a “pattern generator/seeker” that constantly creates and moves towards form, structure and meaning. It doesn’t like to deal with messiness or things outside what is familiar, outside what “makes sense.”
There is SO MUCH below the surface of what is familiar, in regards to our sense of self/identity, our day-to-day lives, our relationships, desires, etc. The momentum of our lives continues day-to-day and has created a kind of “footprint” or “pattern” that we have come to consider “reality.”
In my experience, the beliefs I strongly held around spirituality, meditation practice, etc., provided a sense of security and peace of mind. It made total sense and provided a neat and tidy, step-by-step spiritual world view, so very satisfying…until it all came crumbling down!
I have come to believe that any form and structure, no matter how seemingly “high-vibration,” like the forms of exalted beings and their teachings, are not necessarily meant to remain in form and structure to the awakening student/disciple.
At any rate, in the experience of being swept up by the primal “Bliss Resonance,” your sense of identity and attachment to any teaching, teacher, guru, etc., all get shattered/pulverized, changed forever!
Perhaps, in a sense, the form/structure of the student (as well as the teacher/Guru) changes/shifts to a wider container that is able to accommodate the expanding relationship and consciousness.
Previous relationships of form and structure are remembered as a distant dream, a distant lifetime, meant to be transformed to a different and wider relationship…one that, like a dance, can be wild, chaotic, disassembling…as well as sublimely transcendent, blissful!
When the Divine Dance takes over, form, structure and mind patterns drop away…there is only the dance!
To me it seems that the “busy-ness” of mind, as well as its habitual patterns of thinking and relating to the world, makes it a little too easy to slip into mindless thinking and acting that keep us insulated from the finer vibrations and energies flowing so deliciously in the spine and rest of the body!
Our habitual patterns, over a period of many years (and perhaps a lifetime), become like a freight train that is not so easy to stop or change course.
However, it just takes repeated intentions of noticing sensations to finer and finer levels of subtlety in order to shift “tracks” of a mind that seems so intractable. A mind that is “locked” into a certain range of thinking and behaving may not want to consider exploring things outside what it has become accustomed to, that has no meaning or point of interest in terms of its familiar mindset.
The point is that the mind, through its “day-to-day-to-day” habit patterns has created the “spectrum” of how we think/feel/act…and like a train moving along familiar tracks, we get comfortable with what is predictable and “safe.”
The momentum over many years (and perhaps a lifetime) of feeling, thinking and acting within certain parameters, creates the thinnest of veils that prevents the mind from exploring sensations that are just below the “veneer” of the mind’s unwillingness to feel deeply.
In my experience, I believe I did not truly “get” (understand) the significance of simply feeling into the overall sensation of the body. This approach may sound too simple…and accordingly my mind resisted, would not allow placing so much attention on feelings!
Part of the “problem” for me was that my mind was, for years, going down the “tracks” of a monastic lifestyle that included very high ideals of meditation practice and codes of behavior. Not that there is anything wrong with monastic lifestyle or having high ideals, etc.
It is my belief now that whenever the mind gets “caught” on any track of thinking/feeling/behaving, no matter how lofty the “tracks” may seem, if the mind ceases to consider or feel the wider energetic field beyond its narrow perspective, then this becomes a “problem.”
For me, when the monastic lifestyle “track” came crumbling down, it allowed me a visceral experience of wild and primal energies at work in my life. Learning to work with these chaotic and volatile energies required a relinquishment of belief systems around spirituality and concepts about enlightenment/satori/samadhi, Kundalini, the guru-disciple relationship, etc. etc.
I believe these were all helpful in the beginning, but at a certain point, when actually connecting with primal energies, it all goes down the drain! They all lose meaning.
I would like to elaborate a bit more on the “pattern disrupt” of the mind that seems to be required in order to feel the subtle currents in the spine, not only during periods of meditation but anytime you wish to connect with them…standing in line at the market, sitting at the coffee shop, while driving, etc.
The point is that when connecting consciously with the infinitely fine, bliss-imparting sensations, you will also understand how close this primal vibration has always been…and how simple it is to remain connected!
The process of feeling the subtle currents in the spine is simple…but ironically most difficult when we do not allow ourselves enough time to “hold” the fine vibrations just long enough to feel their connections with the wider and more expansive resonance of the Bliss Vibration.
The mind gets in the way. It does not wish to let itself go into the primal experience of feelings. It remains stuck in patterns of thoughts and memories (mind chatter) that it has grown accustomed to, with little or no inclination to explore the finer realms just below the surface.
In my experience, even though I may have had the intention to feel into subtle sensations/vibrations during meditation practice, it is apparent now that I did not give enough import to the seemingly insignificant sensations moving through my body, sensations that were subtle yet familiar.
As I’ve mentioned elsewhere, there are no insignificant sensations! Any sensation can be a potential pathway connecting you with the most subtle realms of mystical beauty!
I think it ironic that for me, the shift in mind, the “pattern disrupt” did not come through meditation practice, but rather through the pain of illness, specifically the flu.
For years I had maintained a desire and intention to go deep in meditation, to connect with “Kundalini.” I kept a strict meditation practice everyday, many times a day…but it was just not enough to connect with the subtle realms.
Suffering from the flu provided my mind the “pattern disrupt” that it needed to shake me from my familiar state of awareness. Of course I was in pain and my mind was in a kind of trance-like state.
The familiar sensations of the body felt “off”…and this put my mind in an unusual mode. The sensations felt familiar and not-so-familiar at the same time!
This was a very different perspective on what I would normally not give much attention to, but it created something of a “cascading” affect on my mind that finally allowed itself to follow sensations to finer and finer points of subtlety!
As mentioned in the previous post, it was “for want of feeling slightly below my familiar set of sensations…” that I spent years in meditation practice without connecting deeply with subtle sensations and vibrations…the oh-so-important “stepping stones” to deeper and deeper meditations.
These “stepping stones” of subtle sensations are like connecting pieces that opens you up to the visceral experience of the “Om Vibration,” the resonance of exquisitely fine vibrations.
I found that the “subtle sensations” in the body (and spine) are readily accessible and easily felt by our sensitive nervous systems. From my perspective I can describe the process as this: feeling into the overall sensation of the body…and then feeling slightly deeper…and then slightly deeper, etc.
This approach sounds easy enough to do…and I believe that it truly is. However, if there is any difficulty in accessing the subtle realms/vibrations in the body, it is in the mind’s resistance to feeling deeply.
Of course we all have the capacity to feel deeply, as evidenced whenever we have emotional outbursts of joy, sadness, anger, etc. My suggestion here is to use this capacity (to feel deeply) with intention… to follow sensations to finer and finer points of subtlety. Following just the sensation!
Now, what I mean by the mind’s “resistance” to feeling deeply is the habitual pattern of the mind to follow the trail of thoughts and memories that are connected with the sensations…instead of just focusing on the sensation/vibration.
l found that as I began focusing on just the overall sensation of the body, the mind would begin to relax and the thoughts would slow down, with occasional moments (flashes) when thoughts would stop altogether.
These momentary flashes of “no-thought,” as fleeting as they were, imparted intimations of the vastly wide and deep “Bliss Resonance.” I think of these “intimations” as a kind of “pattern disrupt” that shifts the body and mind to a very different relationship with the Life Force (the energies moving through the body)…and how we interact with sensations/vibrations.
Normally we do not pay much attention to our familiar, “day-to-day” set of sensations. We do not give much thought to the overall vibration of Being. There does not seem to be any reason or purpose for doing so.
Of course, whenever we are in physical or emotional pain, our attention is drawn towards the feelings of pain, usually with reactivity…wanting to be free of the pain.
Now, it is easier to feel into subtle sensations when the body and mind are fairly calm and free of pain. However, the very practice of feeling into subtle sensations has a practical benefit of easing physical and emotional pain, even if just a little.
This can be a challenge because when we are in pain, the last thing we want to do is to tune into and feel deeper into the pain! For this reason it is important to experience the process of tuning into subtle sensations when the body and mind are fairly stable and free of pain.
I remember suffering severely from the intense pain of sciatica and nothing seemed to help, even my practice of tuning into the subtle sensations. The pain was like a “bull-in-the-china shop” of any connection that I may have had with fine vibrations.
However, I found it interesting that I could feel two simultaneous “rivers” of sensations: one that was intensely painful and the other one that had a kind of “underground” reverberation that was comforting. It did not free me of pain, but it shifted my reactivity to it.
The habitual patterns of the day-to-day mind makes it easy for us to navigate our lives, without having to learn and relearn all that is required for us to make it successfully through each day and to—hopefully—thrive in the world.
Habits of eating, sleeping, dressing, bathing, working, etc., along with all the social skills required, good/bad habits of thinking/believing, etc., creates our sense of self, our identity, our “channel normal,” that for good and bad, filters our perspective on how we think, feel and move through life.
Connecting with the Bliss Resonance in the body (especially in the spine), requires a very different perspective and relationship with our sense of self and our “life force.”
As mentioned many times before, in my opinion, the mechanics of connecting with the Bliss Resonance is not a difficult process. Anyone with a fairly sound body/mind/psyche, who is fairly self-reflective…and has a conscience, I believe is very close to the ecstatic realms of subtle vibrations.
In my experience, for want of feeling slightly below my familiar set of sensations…and then going slightly deeper, I spent years practicing meditation techniques without exploring the simple-but-transformative realms of subtle sensations/vibrations.
It would seem that it “goes-without-saying” that this is what meditation technique is all about: feeling into subtlety! However, for me, practicing technique could not show or teach me how to feel into the overall sensation of the body. For this it required the simple noticing of Being…in the moment.
Sound too simple? The paradox is that it IS simple! There is divine simplicity in feeling the overall sensation of all that vibrates within and all around us! I believe the big shift, the big “AHA!” occurs when we first notice the oh-so-delicate “feel-good” sensations that percolate/bubble up in the body.
Fleeting moments of “no-thought” during periods of meditation are very different from “absent-mindedness.” When deeply “tuned” into the very delicate sensations moving through the body, the mind naturally slows down as the feeling state comes to the fore.
In absent-mindedness there is no stable or grounded center of conscious awareness. The consciousness remains disconnected from the vibration of “center,” disconnected from the Bliss Resonance. An absent mind is easily caught in the “currents” of habitual patterns of thinking and acting.
Now, when feeling deeply into fine sensations they seem to have a way of “gripping” or “squeezing” the mind into focus…into one-pointedness! The mind/awareness becomes rooted to the sensation of “Center,” the experience of “Being.” Such moments may be accompanied by “flashes” of “no-thought” and intimations of the Bliss Resonance.
The “Bliss Resonance,” as best as I can describe it, is a deeply subtle sensation of the overall vibration of the body that imparts an energetic uplift of body/mind/psyche. Also, because the sensation is innately blissful, the mind is automatically drawn inwards, as though caught or embraced by a “squeezing” or “contorting” energy, as felt in the spine and rest of the body.
The “uplift” of vibration also has an affect of lifting and straightening the spine, lifting the eyes, automatically and spontaneously. The Bliss Resonance is like a live wire in the body that “electrifies” the system!