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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part V

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I believe it is in noticing the small, incremental shifts in awareness that opens a pathway for us to feel into finer and finer nuances of sensations…and that ultimately opens us to experience ourselves as subtle “waves” of vibrations.

As you begin to notice the overall resonance of the body, you may also start to notice the mind shifting, going into an inwardly focused state as it attunes to the subtle vibrations of the body.

Now, without conscious intention to feel deeper and deeper into subtlety, the mind remains at a certain depth and at some point is distracted by thoughts, memories, outside distractions, etc.

However, with strong intention to maintain one-pointed focus on subtle sensations of the body, you begin to experience fleeting moments of “no-thought,” when for a moment there is just a simple “noticing” of the overall feeling of the body.

I have found it important to continue holding the intention to go deeper and deeper into the overall vibration (hum) of the body. For me, when feeling into the “hum,” it seems that the vibration itself has a way of holding, gripping the mind into one-pointed focus.

This is a subtlety of the Life Force, that when awakened, seems to activate the body to spontaneously move and adjust in order to manage the increasing “voltage” of energy moving through the spine and rest of the body.

As you gain more facility and capacity for this ever-increasing “current,” the spontaneous movements of the body become more and more like a beautiful and delicate dance of Life Force in the body!

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part III

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I believe it is important to experience what we might think of as “bad habits” from a different perspective…namely a different feeling perspective. Let me explain what I mean. Normally, our habitual patterns of behaviors get played out again and again, with little or no resistance to change the patterns.

This is all fine and good if the habits are of a beneficial nature…healthy eating habits, regular exercise routine, positive temperament, etc. However, if the habits are not so beneficial, then it can be quite torturous to feel helplessly caught in the currents of bad thought and behavior patterns that we seem to have little or no power to redirect.

A different approach that I am suggesting here is in feeling the overall sense of yourselves from a perspective that observes the “agitation” of desires with the intention to follow the activating desire impulses to finer and more subtle vibrations.

In other words, in following the activating sensations (of any desire) to their point of finer and finer subtlety, a different perspective of the impulses is experienced, one that allows them to be shifted/transmuted, through resonance, with the vastly wider underlying vibration of the body. This “underlying” vibration of the body has a way of absorbing the agitation of desires, just as the Ocean is able to absorb the largest and most boisterous of rivers.

Once you have experienced desire impulses from the perspective of consciously observing, consciously feeling their subtle vibratory nature, then you will also understand their relationship to the wider field or current of “Life Force.”

In other words, the impulse/vibration/sensation of desires can be felt in relation to a more expansive vibration that does not get stuck in one area of the body. This allows the “agitation” of desires to be absorbed and transmuted by the wider and deeper field of the overall sensation of Being.

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part IV

The approach of feeling into the resonance of the overall vibration of the body has a way of naturally and easily drawing the mind to a one-pointed awareness…an awareness of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being!

A delicate balance point is created as the mind that “holds” to the central core of the overall sensation gives rise to a giddiness or wobbliness of the body…a result of the interplay of contraction/relaxation, stillness/movement, incoming/outgoing breath, etc.

I think of it in this way: the experience of the body/mind/psyche that is focused upon the innermost sensation in the spine is like a play of the finest strands of silk moving in delicious spirals through what feels like the central core of the body.

Feeling into this subtle sensation has a way of naturally interiorizing the mind. Body, mind, breath are “held” as though gently electrified in different postures that allows the flow and overflow of energies to move without getting stuck.

These “postures” taken up by the body are not static, “thought out” positions, but rather dynamic geometries of the body guided by the Life Force, oftentimes in incremental micro movements…like a slow-motion dance!

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Medicine Song, Dance of Life Force in the Body, Part VI

When feeling into the overall sensation of the body, notice the corresponding shifts in awareness, however subtle. For example, when sitting (as in meditation pose), while experiencing the overall vibration/sensation of the body, it is important to also notice the very slight shifts in consciousness as the mind begins to tune into the finer movements of energy deep within the body.

By noticing the very slight shifts in consciousness, as the awareness latches onto finer and finer currents of sensations, it gives a reference point for knowing how to go deeper and deeper into the subtle reverberations of the life force.

This “reference point” of the simple “noticing/acknowledging” of feeling into what is just beneath any sensation (giddiness for example) provides an entry point for the mind to go deeper into subtle vibration. Any sensation, then, can serve as an invitation for the mind to follow and grab hold of the finer and finer threads of vibrations that then lead to deeper and deeper states of meditative trance.

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Medicine Song – Dance of Life Force in the Body, Part II

Medicine Song is the inner vibration of Being, an ecstatic wave of energy felt as the underlying “hum” of the body, the sum total of all sensations felt in the moment as one resonance. ONE RESONANCE!

There is no difficulty in feeling this, but an important component of this experience is in noticing and acknowledging the period of “no-thought,” if even for a fraction of a second…the “moment” when there is only the sensation of Being. This need not be a big “Wow!” experience.

The simple “noticing and acknowledging” of the moment creates a gentle “Ah, there it is!” experience of the subtle vibrations and sensations that we finally “get” were always so very close and within easy reach of our awareness.

So what? Of what benefit is this? Well, this initial “get” creates a kind of opening that leads the awareness to deeper and deeper levels of subtlety, the primal energies as felt in the spine and throughout the body. It allows us to experience a vastly wider range of vibrations, connecting us to the underlying “hum,” the overall resonance of Being.

This fine vibration of Being is delicate, subtle, sweet…ecstatically blissful!

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Tuning Into the Subtlety of Sensations, Part V

What is meant by “feeling into, connecting with subtle vibration?” It can be a simple “tuning into” the overall vibration or sensation of the body. This requires an initial sitting still and being attentive to what is felt in the body, in the moment.

For many, including longtime meditators, for lack of feeling deeply and not following sensations that are so easily accessible, they cut themselves off from the ecstatically blissful currents that permeate the subtle realms!

What happens, I believe (and this was true for myself), is that the relationship with our sense of being, with emotions, feelings, etc., over the long stretch of daily life, defaults to the patterns and habits of thinking and feeling that we’ve grown accustomed to and familiar with.

And because of the familiarity and “daily-ness” of life (and meditations), it may not dawn upon us to even consider the sensations/vibrations that are subtle and just below the vibrations of what we are familiar with.

I would dare say that anyone of you who are reading these words, in this very moment, can access very fine, subtle sensations in the body…sensations that you normally would not give any serious attention to. However, for the sake of exploration and for all the new discoveries that can ensue, try this…feeling into subtle sensation and then following the sensations deeper and deeper.

Here is what usually happens: the mind (or sense of “I-ness”) resists, wanting to stay in its range of what is familiar. It may even argue: “I already know how to feel deeply, what’s the big deal? What is the benefit? Why should I do this? I already know how to meditate.” With this kind of resistance, the “exploration” does not go very deep, as the mind short-circuits any effort to even begin.

The mind also gets in the way in the sense of the ideals, expectations and preconceived notions that it has around concepts of spirituality, enlightenment, kundalini awakening, etc.

All too often, the mind/ego expects a kind of “Big Bang! Big Wow!” experience in the realms of “awakening” and “enlightenment.” These expectations and preconceived notions have a way of dampening the heart’s natural sensitivity to fine vibrations.

It just requires a simple feeling into the overall sensations of the body and tuning into what is just below the surface of what we might consider to be our “normal” sensitivity. It need not be very deep at first… just deep enough for the awareness to connect with an overall sensation that is just below what we are usually accustomed to. This is not difficult to do.

Note: In this beginning phase of feeling into subtlety, it is important to not analyze or judge the sensation or experience. Just notice and acknowledge that you DO have the ability to connect/feel into subtlety! The next step is to continue going deeper and following vibration from one point of subtlety to the next.

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Tuning Into the Subtlety of Sensations, Part IV

One of the purposes of “Accessing Your Higher Self” blog site is to share helpful ways to shift the relationship we have with “life force/energy” (our sense of self) to a much deeper and more expansive one that connects us with the subtleties of our Divine gifts…gifts we are meant to express and share with the world.

What does it mean to “connect with the subtleties of our Divine gifts?” It is a process of feeling deeper and deeper into the overall sensation/resonance of Being, allowing the mind to be absorbed into what feels like an underlying hum/vibration.

The intention to feel deeper and deeper into the “underlying hum” is a distilling of sensation to the finest, most subtle essence of Being.

As the awareness attunes itself deeper and deeper with this subtle “Hum,” the body/mind/psyche inevitably goes into a kind of swoon/contortion of overflowing energies, ecstatically blissful by nature.

This “overflowing” of energy happens as a result of mind that, as it “touches” or experiences subtle vibration, an expansion of mind and energy happens simultaneously, creating a “contortion” of the physical body.

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We Are Meant to Dance, Part 4

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For anyone who loves to dance, they usually know what kind of music gets their juices flowing. Their bodies seem to move on their own, in resonance with what they hear and feel!

We are music loving, dance loving creations! When we tune into the fine sensation that is activated inside of us upon listening to our favorite music, a doorway is opened to experience that “Aha! There it is (the ecstatic vibration)!” moment with the Bliss Resonance.

That “Aha!” moment represents a conscious connection with the very fine, microscopic thread of the Bliss sensation that can be pulled and followed to exquisitely deep and luxurious feelings in the body and especially the spine.

In this connection with the Bliss Resonance, the sensation in the body is like the finest silken thread being pulled through the spine. This is the thread that the archetype of “Spider Woman” uses to weave the very fabric of creation! Her needles move at the speed of Now to create all things!

I write these accounts with the hope that—to those of you who have followed this “thread” of “We Are Meant to Dance” thus far, that it may awaken your apprehension of this very fine energetic thread moving through the spine and limbs and that you have the somatic experience of which I speak.

In this experience the body is as a lightning rod so to speak, electrified by the ecstatic current moving through the field of the body. For those who resonate with these words, with the space that I speak from, understand that you are a mere hairbreadth away from that “Aha!” recognition of the sublime Bliss Resonance!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not.

Contact me here: http://manakastudios.com/contact.html

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We Are Meant to Dance, Part 3

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While listening to our favorite music, or while dancing, it is easy to tune into that place of enjoyment within ourselves. Now, for those who are interested in magnifying those pleasant, uplifting sensations, it is a matter–as mentioned in my last post–of “recognizing consciously” what is activating us to move/dance in resonance with what we are listening to.

“Recognizing consciously” means, in the way I use it here, is getting to that “Aha! There it is!” with the Bliss Resonance that is activating our desire to move and groove with the music we listen to.

It is a kind of “capturing” the bubble of bliss that is viscerally felt in the body, usually most strongly in the spine. It is a sensation that contorts the spine, arching it backwards. The body, when we surrender to the sensation, knows how to luxuriate in the vibration.

The eyes then naturally go upwards, as though following the sensation up the spine to the area above the crown.

It is fairly easy to feel the activating Bliss Resonance in the body when listening to music, or when doing any creative activity. The main and subtle point that I believe is most significant here is in getting to that “aha!” moment when you intuitively understand how to grab hold of the very fine sensation that moves like a bubble in the spine…and you know that you are intimately connected with a sensation/vibration/energy that expands in waves of bliss the deeper you allow yourself to feel and luxuriate in its resonance.

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Meditation “Practice”

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I’m familiar—as most people are—with the emotional states of sadness, grief, joy, anger, etc. The wide emotional range of what it means to be human. Take joy for example. If we follow the sensations that move through the body, it seems to trigger a smile response upon our face, which also has a sensation. Now, when tuning into the sensation/vibration of joy in the body, the mind’s attention can easily follow and “attune” to the vibration. It offers a natural way of focusing the mind, relaxing the tight and distracted mind.

The body has the sensitivity to feel deeply and in this sensitivity to vibration, we can learn to use any feeling/sensation to go deeply into the body, to attune the mind—in resonance—with exquisitely fine sensations. What value does this have?

For one thing, it is a natural and simple way of focusing the mind, a way of releasing thought loops of worries and anxieties. Also, when the attention is focused upon sensations in the body, the natural pathway of attention, of mind, seems to be towards finer and more subtle vibration… and it is in this subtlety that the connection to the Bliss Resonance can be established.

I find it interesting that in all my years of meditation “practice,” my attachment (and rigidity) to doing technique “correctly” served as a mental barrier that would ensure my eternal inability to connect with the fine bliss sensations in the spine that the gurus spoke about.

In releasing the mental constructs of meditation and allowing myself to simply feel and follow the inner prompts of sensations, wherever they started (joyful, sad, angry, scary, etc.), I found that all feelings/sensations are connected to a deeply vast resonance that has an ecstatically “feel good” component.

It is a matter of getting past our inner gatekeeper, the thoughts/beliefs/assumptions we have regarding God, spirituality, techniques.

To be continued

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