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Reverberations of the Underlying Bliss Resonance, Part I

Cosmic Mother II, art by Bruce Manaka

Cosmic Mother II, art by Bruce Manaka

When feeling into the overall sensation of the body, while holding intention to connect with finer and finer vibrations, the mind goes deeper and deeper into what may feel like the central core or channel of the spine.

This process is simple enough in that it just requires what you are already familiar with: your feelings. The crux of the process though is in feeling just the vibrations…while relaxing the thinking, analytical mind.

In other words: feeling the subtle sensations without the distracting currents of thoughts, memories, etc. This need not be perfectly done…just enough to get moments of sensations/vibrations minus the “bouncing around” of thoughts and memories.

Someone recently remarked to me that she was still not able to feel the “subtle currents” in the spine. She understood well enough the concepts of being in the moment, feeling subtle sensations, spinal currents, Kundalini, etc.

Now, when I asked her what she experienced when she relaxed and felt deeply into her body, into the overall sensation of “Being,” she said she was able to feel a vibration, “like a buzzing.”

However, beyond that, she could not seem to go deeper. I mentioned to her that using the same process that led to her experience of the “buzzing” would lead to a deeper and deeper connection with the vastly wider and transformative “Bliss Resonance.”

In other words, by feeling slightly below the surface of what you feel in the moment and then continuing the process of going “slightly deeper,” you will inevitably come to experience sensations that are below the range of familiar vibrations/sensations.

Once you “get” how simple the process truly is, your visceral experience of feeling into sensations that you would normally not pay much attention to creates an open invitation for you to explore ever-more deeply.

Also, when the “antennae” of your feelings begin to tune into finer and finer vibrations, you will also receive intimations of a vastly wider resonance that seems to reverberate just below the surface of what you are experiencing in the moment.

This reverberation is the underlying Bliss Resonance!

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Surrendering to the Cosmic Dance, Part IX

Ideals such as enlightenment, God, samadhi, satori, spiritual freedom, etc. may be lofty and worthy concepts to include in prayers/intentions, but not so practical when it comes to simply being, feeling in the moment.

When feeling into the overall vibration/sensation of the moment, any expectation or lofty assumption regarding the experience may create an unnecessary and unwanted barrier in the primal experience of Being.

There is a divine simplicity in feeling into finer and finer sensations…no expectations, assumptions, judgements, etc. Just the experience of the overall sensation of Being!

At first the mind may resist, defaulting to habits of constantly engaging with outer desires and distractions. In other words, it “bounces” around in constant motion, disengaged from the underlying subtle currents.

It resists going against the tidal pull of the habitual patterns that keeps the mind in perpetual engagement with the superficial and boisterous waves of the Earthly drama.

How to disengage the mind from its preoccupation with the superficial drama? I believe it is important to understand the concept of “pattern disrupt.” What I mean by this is that so long as we remain on the surface of habitual thinking and feeling, the momentum of habits will keep us caught in the “patterns” of superficial thinking and feeling.

Now, the idea of “pattern disrupt” is one that tunes us to a different “resonance” or “pattern” of consciousness…mainly subtle sensations. Feeling into subtle sensations provides the “pattern disrupt.”

Pattern disrupt provides a different perspective…one that switches from being “thought-centered” to “feeling-centered.” With the intention to feel into finer and finer sensations, the momentum of awareness shifts away from superficial “bouncing around.”

It shifts to one that is able to not only observe the flittering of the mind, but to one that is also able to feel the subtle currents deep in the spine.

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Focusing the Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part IV

You can experiment for yourselves what happens when focusing your mind on subtle and seemingly insignificant sensations in the body. There are an infinite number of sensations that can be focused upon: cold or hot hands/feet, giddiness in the area of the stomach/abdomen, tension in the scalp, etc., etc.

When feeling into any subtle sensations, take notice of what happens to your awareness and how it affects the body. When the mind’s focus connects deeply with any subtle sensation, I notice that my eyes become very still and lift slightly upwards in the eye sockets.

This “lifting up” of the eyes happens automatically, spontaneously. If you use intention or will to lift them up, as sometimes recommended in certain meditation techniques, you may miss the point of connecting with the very fine “currents” of the Life Force that flow naturally through the spine and rest of the body.

It just requires a delicate noticing. The “rising up” feeling of the eyes creates an overall “lifting up” sensation of the body. There is an important point being made here. When the mind is deeply focused on any subtle sensation, the eyes become still…and the mind also becomes still (if only for a moment).

These “moments” of focus and stillness are worth taking deep notice of, in that it offers a way for you to “capture” the visceral experience of the focused, one-pointed mind and how deeply interconnected it is with the body.

Mind holds sensation…sensation holds mind! In apprehending the delicate balance of mind and subtle sensations, there is an inner “getting,” a gentle “aha!” of how very close you are and always have been to the Divine Resonance, the underlying “Hum” of your body/mind/psyche/spirit!

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part V

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I believe it is in noticing the small, incremental shifts in awareness that opens a pathway for us to feel into finer and finer nuances of sensations…and that ultimately opens us to experience ourselves as subtle “waves” of vibrations.

As you begin to notice the overall resonance of the body, you may also start to notice the mind shifting, going into an inwardly focused state as it attunes to the subtle vibrations of the body.

Now, without conscious intention to feel deeper and deeper into subtlety, the mind remains at a certain depth and at some point is distracted by thoughts, memories, outside distractions, etc.

However, with strong intention to maintain one-pointed focus on subtle sensations of the body, you begin to experience fleeting moments of “no-thought,” when for a moment there is just a simple “noticing” of the overall feeling of the body.

I have found it important to continue holding the intention to go deeper and deeper into the overall vibration (hum) of the body. For me, when feeling into the “hum,” it seems that the vibration itself has a way of holding, gripping the mind into one-pointed focus.

This is a subtlety of the Life Force, that when awakened, seems to activate the body to spontaneously move and adjust in order to manage the increasing “voltage” of energy moving through the spine and rest of the body.

As you gain more facility and capacity for this ever-increasing “current,” the spontaneous movements of the body become more and more like a beautiful and delicate dance of Life Force in the body!

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Learning to Transmute Desires, Part III

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I believe it is important to experience what we might think of as “bad habits” from a different perspective…namely a different feeling perspective. Let me explain what I mean. Normally, our habitual patterns of behaviors get played out again and again, with little or no resistance to change the patterns.

This is all fine and good if the habits are of a beneficial nature…healthy eating habits, regular exercise routine, positive temperament, etc. However, if the habits are not so beneficial, then it can be quite torturous to feel helplessly caught in the currents of bad thought and behavior patterns that we seem to have little or no power to redirect.

A different approach that I am suggesting here is in feeling the overall sense of yourselves from a perspective that observes the “agitation” of desires with the intention to follow the activating desire impulses to finer and more subtle vibrations.

In other words, in following the activating sensations (of any desire) to their point of finer and finer subtlety, a different perspective of the impulses is experienced, one that allows them to be shifted/transmuted, through resonance, with the vastly wider underlying vibration of the body. This “underlying” vibration of the body has a way of absorbing the agitation of desires, just as the Ocean is able to absorb the largest and most boisterous of rivers.

Once you have experienced desire impulses from the perspective of consciously observing, consciously feeling their subtle vibratory nature, then you will also understand their relationship to the wider field or current of “Life Force.”

In other words, the impulse/vibration/sensation of desires can be felt in relation to a more expansive vibration that does not get stuck in one area of the body. This allows the “agitation” of desires to be absorbed and transmuted by the wider and deeper field of the overall sensation of Being.

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part IV

The approach of feeling into the resonance of the overall vibration of the body has a way of naturally and easily drawing the mind to a one-pointed awareness…an awareness of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being!

A delicate balance point is created as the mind that “holds” to the central core of the overall sensation gives rise to a giddiness or wobbliness of the body…a result of the interplay of contraction/relaxation, stillness/movement, incoming/outgoing breath, etc.

I think of it in this way: the experience of the body/mind/psyche that is focused upon the innermost sensation in the spine is like a play of the finest strands of silk moving in delicious spirals through what feels like the central core of the body.

Feeling into this subtle sensation has a way of naturally interiorizing the mind. Body, mind, breath are “held” as though gently electrified in different postures that allows the flow and overflow of energies to move without getting stuck.

These “postures” taken up by the body are not static, “thought out” positions, but rather dynamic geometries of the body guided by the Life Force, oftentimes in incremental micro movements…like a slow-motion dance!

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Medicine Song, Dance of Life Force in the Body, Part VI

When feeling into the overall sensation of the body, notice the corresponding shifts in awareness, however subtle. For example, when sitting (as in meditation pose), while experiencing the overall vibration/sensation of the body, it is important to also notice the very slight shifts in consciousness as the mind begins to tune into the finer movements of energy deep within the body.

By noticing the very slight shifts in consciousness, as the awareness latches onto finer and finer currents of sensations, it gives a reference point for knowing how to go deeper and deeper into the subtle reverberations of the life force.

This “reference point” of the simple “noticing/acknowledging” of feeling into what is just beneath any sensation (giddiness for example) provides an entry point for the mind to go deeper into subtle vibration. Any sensation, then, can serve as an invitation for the mind to follow and grab hold of the finer and finer threads of vibrations that then lead to deeper and deeper states of meditative trance.

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Medicine Song – Dance of Life Force in the Body, Part II

Medicine Song is the inner vibration of Being, an ecstatic wave of energy felt as the underlying “hum” of the body, the sum total of all sensations felt in the moment as one resonance. ONE RESONANCE!

There is no difficulty in feeling this, but an important component of this experience is in noticing and acknowledging the period of “no-thought,” if even for a fraction of a second…the “moment” when there is only the sensation of Being. This need not be a big “Wow!” experience.

The simple “noticing and acknowledging” of the moment creates a gentle “Ah, there it is!” experience of the subtle vibrations and sensations that we finally “get” were always so very close and within easy reach of our awareness.

So what? Of what benefit is this? Well, this initial “get” creates a kind of opening that leads the awareness to deeper and deeper levels of subtlety, the primal energies as felt in the spine and throughout the body. It allows us to experience a vastly wider range of vibrations, connecting us to the underlying “hum,” the overall resonance of Being.

This fine vibration of Being is delicate, subtle, sweet…ecstatically blissful!

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Tuning Into the Subtlety of Sensations, Part V

What is meant by “feeling into, connecting with subtle vibration?” It can be a simple “tuning into” the overall vibration or sensation of the body. This requires an initial sitting still and being attentive to what is felt in the body, in the moment.

For many, including longtime meditators, for lack of feeling deeply and not following sensations that are so easily accessible, they cut themselves off from the ecstatically blissful currents that permeate the subtle realms!

What happens, I believe (and this was true for myself), is that the relationship with our sense of being, with emotions, feelings, etc., over the long stretch of daily life, defaults to the patterns and habits of thinking and feeling that we’ve grown accustomed to and familiar with.

And because of the familiarity and “daily-ness” of life (and meditations), it may not dawn upon us to even consider the sensations/vibrations that are subtle and just below the vibrations of what we are familiar with.

I would dare say that anyone of you who are reading these words, in this very moment, can access very fine, subtle sensations in the body…sensations that you normally would not give any serious attention to. However, for the sake of exploration and for all the new discoveries that can ensue, try this…feeling into subtle sensation and then following the sensations deeper and deeper.

Here is what usually happens: the mind (or sense of “I-ness”) resists, wanting to stay in its range of what is familiar. It may even argue: “I already know how to feel deeply, what’s the big deal? What is the benefit? Why should I do this? I already know how to meditate.” With this kind of resistance, the “exploration” does not go very deep, as the mind short-circuits any effort to even begin.

The mind also gets in the way in the sense of the ideals, expectations and preconceived notions that it has around concepts of spirituality, enlightenment, kundalini awakening, etc.

All too often, the mind/ego expects a kind of “Big Bang! Big Wow!” experience in the realms of “awakening” and “enlightenment.” These expectations and preconceived notions have a way of dampening the heart’s natural sensitivity to fine vibrations.

It just requires a simple feeling into the overall sensations of the body and tuning into what is just below the surface of what we might consider to be our “normal” sensitivity. It need not be very deep at first… just deep enough for the awareness to connect with an overall sensation that is just below what we are usually accustomed to. This is not difficult to do.

Note: In this beginning phase of feeling into subtlety, it is important to not analyze or judge the sensation or experience. Just notice and acknowledge that you DO have the ability to connect/feel into subtlety! The next step is to continue going deeper and following vibration from one point of subtlety to the next.

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Tuning Into the Subtlety of Sensations, Part IV

One of the purposes of “Accessing Your Higher Self” blog site is to share helpful ways to shift the relationship we have with “life force/energy” (our sense of self) to a much deeper and more expansive one that connects us with the subtleties of our Divine gifts…gifts we are meant to express and share with the world.

What does it mean to “connect with the subtleties of our Divine gifts?” It is a process of feeling deeper and deeper into the overall sensation/resonance of Being, allowing the mind to be absorbed into what feels like an underlying hum/vibration.

The intention to feel deeper and deeper into the “underlying hum” is a distilling of sensation to the finest, most subtle essence of Being.

As the awareness attunes itself deeper and deeper with this subtle “Hum,” the body/mind/psyche inevitably goes into a kind of swoon/contortion of overflowing energies, ecstatically blissful by nature.

This “overflowing” of energy happens as a result of mind that, as it “touches” or experiences subtle vibration, an expansion of mind and energy happens simultaneously, creating a “contortion” of the physical body.

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