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Kundalini Dance of Subtlety, Part III

The following is in response to a number of individuals who have shared with me their terrifying (and yet positively transformative) experiences with Kundalini awakening. Although I use the term “Kundalini awakening,” I do not ascribe any particular religious philosophy or practice to the term. It’s just a way for me to label an experience that is deeply mystifying, wild, crazy, primal, terrifying, mind-shattering, ego-dissolving…and yet ultimately sacred and blissful!


Kundalini Awakening

When we get “cracked” wide open through Kundalini awakening, our sensitivities to subtle realms become heightened to not only angelically beautiful dimensions, but sometimes also to demonically horrid ones as well.

I see it as a kind of “rite-of-passage,” a teaching device that helps us learn to navigate all realms, the heavenly as well as hellish ones. In my experience, I believe no amount of preparation, spiritual practices, calling on angelic protectors, etc., was able to adequately prepare me for entry into those realms. Of course prayers and preparation can be of great help, but I now believe that the bulk of learning happens only while moving through those dimensions…a “sink-or-swim” proposition!

My learning: GRACE! For me, three days prior to my crown opening experience, it was a period of extreme terror, the very last night being the most scary! Everything that I had “thought” I knew previously about protecting myself spiritually and psychically …and that worked fairly well for me in the past, seemed to be “taken away.” In other words, it was as if I could not access (or even remember) my protectors, guides, prayers, etc.

What got me through the nights came unbidden by me: my animal protector, the lion. I remember growling, snapping, roaring for a very long time! Ultimately, my Guides came through, again all unbidden by me, as at that point I did not have the wherewithal to call for help!

When the crown opened up, the entity attacks ceased. They could not bother me. I stayed there for the next 24 hours or so. I’m still integrating the experience and will continue doing so for perhaps the rest of my life!

Going through suffering, dark night of the soul, etc., seems to be all part of the experience…part of our “initiation.” At least that was what was communicated to me. And I’m not sure there was any guarantee of physical survival…

At some point in the process (as I was being put back together), the “I” in me asked, “Where were you (Mother)? Why did you leave me in such a bad place/state?” The answer came as a torrent/download of Love/Bliss (as well as with these words): “We were all there with you during your suffering, but would not interrupt your initiation. When your tears flowed freely not only for yourself but for the condition of the world, did your suffering stop. Your initiation was complete!”

For those who are going through this “mind-shattering/ego-dissolving” process, Perhaps it might be helpful to think of it as a kind of initiation, one that will ultimately transform/recreate you into the powerful and loving Being that you are in essence!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Animal Totems – Feather Energy

Hawk Feather I found on my balcony

Hawk Feather I found on my balcony

For the past two weeks or so, while out for my walk, bird feathers have unexpectedly shown up along the way. Mostly crow feathers, but over the weekend, while walking along the beach, I found two pelican feathers, beautiful plumes 14 inches long!

Pelican feathers found at beach

Pelican feathers found at beach

Whenever certain patterns repeat themselves to me that are somewhat out of the ordinary, I take notice and listen on the inside that I might feel the vibration of what is calling my attention over and over again.

Pelicans in flight over beach in Half Moon Bay

Bird energy seems to be calling to me, and recently I started to collect the feathers as they seem to fairly shout for my attention. Yesterday, I saw a blue heron, the second one within a couple months time. They are stately birds, breathtakingly beautiful!

Blue Heron in Long Beach, CA from Reef Restaurant

Dear Higher Self, why the special preponderance of feathers and special birds at this time?

The feathers are like sensitive wands that can be used to gather the finest impressions of vibrations around and within your body. Just as birds are extremely sensitive creatures, their feathers also pick up the most subtle of energies. As you hold them in your hands, they can be used to not only gather energy but to also project thoughts and intentions. The feathers are showing up as a way to show the pathways of inner flight. They come to you unbidden and unlooked for and yet arouse a sense of awe and reverence for the wonder that they represent. Like the noble Blue Heron, learn to be still and receive the vibrations of all elements of Nature.

Beauty enfolds you in Her wings of dark mystery! Receive and listen to the song of Her flight within your heart. Can you hear the crow in the distant reaches of your imagination? Listen to her now, feisty and playful; versed in the art of trickery and transformation. She is placing feathers upon your path that you might understand the mystical path of vibration and song that you walk. Listen to and experience the connection that you have with all the Earth’s elements! They convey so much to anyone who would take the time to listen. Listen not only with your ears but with all the sensitivity of your finest awareness.

You are surrounded by an aura of light and sound, like feathers dancing in dynamic interplay with the body. And the body is far larger than what the limiting thoughts believe it to be. The eyes “see” it circumscribed and limited by a certain form that you have grown accustomed to; and yet if you close the eyes and “feel” deeply within, it is easy to experience consciousness far beyond the boundaries of physical form. You are that energy, expanded through all space!

As you go for a walk, or sit at your desk, feel the energy component of your consciousness, far beyond the form of the body. How wonderful it is to feel that sense of expansion, as though you had long feathers of light touching and connecting with all Nature! No longer circumscribed by limiting thoughts, you can float with the clouds or soar with the birds through the freedom of skies, unencumbered by beliefs of limitation!

White Egret at Shoreline Sanctuary


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