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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part XIII

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The mind is like a “pattern generator/seeker” that constantly creates and moves towards form, structure and meaning. It doesn’t like to deal with messiness or things outside what is familiar, outside what “makes sense.”

There is SO MUCH below the surface of what is familiar, in regards to our sense of self/identity, our day-to-day lives, our relationships, desires, etc. The momentum of our lives continues day-to-day and has created a kind of “footprint” or “pattern” that we have come to consider “reality.”

In my experience, the beliefs I strongly held around spirituality, meditation practice, etc., provided a sense of security and peace of mind. It made total sense and provided a neat and tidy, step-by-step spiritual world view, so very satisfying…until it all came crumbling down!

I have come to believe that any form and structure, no matter how seemingly “high-vibration,” like the forms of exalted beings and their teachings, are not necessarily meant to remain in form and structure to the awakening student/disciple.

At any rate, in the experience of being swept up by the primal “Bliss Resonance,” your sense of identity and attachment to any teaching, teacher, guru, etc., all get shattered/pulverized, changed forever!

Perhaps, in a sense, the form/structure of the student (as well as the teacher/Guru) changes/shifts to a wider container that is able to accommodate the expanding relationship and consciousness.

Previous relationships of form and structure are remembered as a distant dream, a distant lifetime, meant to be transformed to a different and wider relationship…one that, like a dance, can be wild, chaotic, disassembling…as well as sublimely transcendent, blissful!

When the Divine Dance takes over, form, structure and mind patterns drop away…there is only the dance!

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part XII

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To me it seems that the “busy-ness” of mind, as well as its habitual patterns of thinking and relating to the world, makes it a little too easy to slip into mindless thinking and acting that keep us insulated from the finer vibrations and energies flowing so deliciously in the spine and rest of the body!

Our habitual patterns, over a period of many years (and perhaps a lifetime), become like a freight train that is not so easy to stop or change course.

However, it just takes repeated intentions of noticing sensations to finer and finer levels of subtlety in order to shift “tracks” of a mind that seems so intractable. A mind that is “locked” into a certain range of thinking and behaving may not want to consider exploring things outside what it has become accustomed to, that has no meaning or point of interest in terms of its familiar mindset.

The point is that the mind, through its “day-to-day-to-day” habit patterns has created the “spectrum” of how we think/feel/act…and like a train moving along familiar tracks, we get comfortable with what is predictable and “safe.”

The momentum over many years (and perhaps a lifetime) of feeling, thinking and acting within certain parameters, creates the thinnest of veils that prevents the mind from exploring sensations that are just below the “veneer” of the mind’s unwillingness to feel deeply.

In my experience, I believe I did not truly “get” (understand) the significance of simply feeling into the overall sensation of the body. This approach may sound too simple…and accordingly my mind resisted, would not allow placing so much attention on feelings!

Part of the “problem” for me was that my mind was, for years, going down the “tracks” of a monastic lifestyle that included very high ideals of meditation practice and codes of behavior. Not that there is anything wrong with monastic lifestyle or having high ideals, etc.

It is my belief now that whenever the mind gets “caught” on any track of thinking/feeling/behaving, no matter how lofty the “tracks” may seem, if the mind ceases to consider or feel the wider energetic field beyond its narrow perspective, then this becomes a “problem.”

For me, when the monastic lifestyle “track” came crumbling down, it allowed me a visceral experience of wild and primal energies at work in my life. Learning to work with these chaotic and volatile energies required a relinquishment of belief systems around spirituality and concepts about enlightenment/satori/samadhi, Kundalini, the guru-disciple relationship, etc. etc.

I believe these were all helpful in the beginning, but at a certain point, when actually connecting with primal energies, it all goes down the drain! They all lose meaning.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part XI

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I would like to elaborate a bit more on the “pattern disrupt” of the mind that seems to be required in order to feel the subtle currents in the spine, not only during periods of meditation but anytime you wish to connect with them…standing in line at the market, sitting at the coffee shop, while driving, etc.

The point is that when connecting consciously with the infinitely fine, bliss-imparting sensations, you will also understand how close this primal vibration has always been…and how simple it is to remain connected!

The process of feeling the subtle currents in the spine is simple…but ironically most difficult when we do not allow ourselves enough time to “hold” the fine vibrations just long enough to feel their connections with the wider and more expansive resonance of the Bliss Vibration.

The mind gets in the way. It does not wish to let itself go into the primal experience of feelings. It remains stuck in patterns of thoughts and memories (mind chatter) that it has grown accustomed to, with little or no inclination to explore the finer realms just below the surface.

In my experience, even though I may have had the intention to feel into subtle sensations/vibrations during meditation practice, it is apparent now that I did not give enough import to the seemingly insignificant sensations moving through my body, sensations that were subtle yet familiar.

As I’ve mentioned elsewhere, there are no insignificant sensations! Any sensation can be a potential pathway connecting you with the most subtle realms of mystical beauty!

I think it ironic that for me, the shift in mind, the “pattern disrupt” did not come through meditation practice, but rather through the pain of illness, specifically the flu.

For years I had maintained a desire and intention to go deep in meditation, to connect with “Kundalini.” I kept a strict meditation practice everyday, many times a day…but it was just not enough to connect with the subtle realms.

Suffering from the flu provided my mind the “pattern disrupt” that it needed to shake me from my familiar state of awareness. Of course I was in pain and my mind was in a kind of trance-like state.

The familiar sensations of the body felt “off”…and this put my mind in an unusual mode. The sensations felt familiar and not-so-familiar at the same time!

This was a very different perspective on what I would normally not give much attention to, but it created something of a “cascading” affect on my mind that finally allowed itself to follow sensations to finer and finer points of subtlety!

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part X

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As mentioned in the previous post, it was “for want of feeling slightly below my familiar set of sensations…” that I spent years in meditation practice without connecting deeply with subtle sensations and vibrations…the oh-so-important “stepping stones” to deeper and deeper meditations.

These “stepping stones” of subtle sensations are like connecting pieces that opens you up to the visceral experience of the “Om Vibration,” the resonance of exquisitely fine vibrations.

I found that the “subtle sensations” in the body (and spine) are readily accessible and easily felt by our sensitive nervous systems. From my perspective I can describe the process as this: feeling into the overall sensation of the body…and then feeling slightly deeper…and then slightly deeper, etc.

This approach sounds easy enough to do…and I believe that it truly is. However, if there is any difficulty in accessing the subtle realms/vibrations in the body, it is in the mind’s resistance to feeling deeply.

Of course we all have the capacity to feel deeply, as evidenced whenever we have emotional outbursts of joy, sadness, anger, etc. My suggestion here is to use this capacity (to feel deeply) with intention… to follow sensations to finer and finer points of subtlety. Following just the sensation!

Now, what I mean by the mind’s “resistance” to feeling deeply is the habitual pattern of the mind to follow the trail of thoughts and memories that are connected with the sensations…instead of just focusing on the sensation/vibration.

l found that as I began focusing on just the overall sensation of the body, the mind would begin to relax and the thoughts would slow down, with occasional moments (flashes) when thoughts would stop altogether.

These momentary flashes of “no-thought,” as fleeting as they were, imparted intimations of the vastly wide and deep “Bliss Resonance.” I think of these “intimations” as a kind of “pattern disrupt” that shifts the body and mind to a very different relationship with the Life Force (the energies moving through the body)…and how we interact with sensations/vibrations.

Normally we do not pay much attention to our familiar, “day-to-day” set of sensations. We do not give much thought to the overall vibration of Being. There does not seem to be any reason or purpose for doing so.

Of course, whenever we are in physical or emotional pain, our attention is drawn towards the feelings of pain, usually with reactivity…wanting to be free of the pain.

Now, it is easier to feel into subtle sensations when the body and mind are fairly calm and free of pain. However, the very practice of feeling into subtle sensations has a practical benefit of easing physical and emotional pain, even if just a little.

This can be a challenge because when we are in pain, the last thing we want to do is to tune into and feel deeper into the pain! For this reason it is important to experience the process of tuning into subtle sensations when the body and mind are fairly stable and free of pain.

I remember suffering severely from the intense pain of sciatica and nothing seemed to help, even my practice of tuning into the subtle sensations. The pain was like a “bull-in-the-china shop” of any connection that I may have had with fine vibrations.

However, I found it interesting that I could feel two simultaneous “rivers” of sensations: one that was intensely painful and the other one that had a kind of “underground” reverberation that was comforting. It did not free me of pain, but it shifted my reactivity to it.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part IX

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The habitual patterns of the day-to-day mind makes it easy for us to navigate our lives, without having to learn and relearn all that is required for us to make it successfully through each day and to—hopefully—thrive in the world.

Habits of eating, sleeping, dressing, bathing, working, etc., along with all the social skills required, good/bad habits of thinking/believing, etc., creates our sense of self, our identity, our “channel normal,” that for good and bad, filters our perspective on how we think, feel and move through life.

Connecting with the Bliss Resonance in the body (especially in the spine), requires a very different perspective and relationship with our sense of self and our “life force.”

As mentioned many times before, in my opinion, the mechanics of connecting with the Bliss Resonance is not a difficult process. Anyone with a fairly sound body/mind/psyche, who is fairly self-reflective…and has a conscience, I believe is very close to the ecstatic realms of subtle vibrations.

In my experience, for want of feeling slightly below my familiar set of sensations…and then going slightly deeper, I spent years practicing meditation techniques without exploring the simple-but-transformative realms of subtle sensations/vibrations.

It would seem that it “goes-without-saying” that this is what meditation technique is all about: feeling into subtlety! However, for me, practicing technique could not show or teach me how to feel into the overall sensation of the body. For this it required the simple noticing of Being…in the moment.

Sound too simple? The paradox is that it IS simple! There is divine simplicity in feeling the overall sensation of all that vibrates within and all around us! I believe the big shift, the big “AHA!” occurs when we first notice the oh-so-delicate “feel-good” sensations that percolate/bubble up in the body.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part VIII

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Fleeting moments of “no-thought” during periods of meditation are very different from “absent-mindedness.” When deeply “tuned” into the very delicate sensations moving through the body, the mind naturally slows down as the feeling state comes to the fore.

In absent-mindedness there is no stable or grounded center of conscious awareness. The consciousness remains disconnected from the vibration of “center,” disconnected from the Bliss Resonance. An absent mind is easily caught in the “currents” of habitual patterns of thinking and acting.

Now, when feeling deeply into fine sensations they seem to have a way of “gripping” or “squeezing” the mind into focus…into one-pointedness! The mind/awareness becomes rooted to the sensation of “Center,” the experience of “Being.” Such moments may be accompanied by “flashes” of “no-thought” and intimations of the Bliss Resonance.

The “Bliss Resonance,” as best as I can describe it, is a deeply subtle sensation of the overall vibration of the body that imparts an energetic uplift of body/mind/psyche. Also, because the sensation is innately blissful, the mind is automatically drawn inwards, as though caught or embraced by a “squeezing” or “contorting” energy, as felt in the spine and rest of the body.

The “uplift” of vibration also has an affect of lifting and straightening the spine, lifting the eyes, automatically and spontaneously. The Bliss Resonance is like a live wire in the body that “electrifies” the system!

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part VII

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When feeling into the overall sensation/resonance of the body, with the intention to focus upon subtle vibrations, you may begin to feel intimations of a vast and primal sensation. Initially it can be mere flashes of what feels like a deep underground “rumbling” or “reverberation.”

These “intimations” can bring up certain feelings. For me,  they are quite oftentimes feelings of nostalgia and sensations of giddiness…all very subtle at first.

With the intention to go deeper into the subtlety, the mind and body begin to experience a most delicate balance point of focus…and by virtue of simply feeling into these fine vibrations, you may connect with certain unfamiliar sensations, including one that imparts an upliftment of feelings, the Bliss Resonance!

With deeper play, exploration and surrender to the Bliss Resonance, you will begin to experience how the body innately and spontaneously knows how to move and dance with the growing Bliss energy.

You will observe how the body will take up certain postures and “micro-movements” as ways to allow greater flow of what wants to move, express and expand in the body/mind/spirit.

The play of subtlety with the Bliss Resonance becomes more like a beautiful dance and unlike what we might have considered as meditation “practice.”

When viscerally connected with the fine energies of the life force, the Bliss Resonance, the thought of “meditation practice” no longer “fits” nor has the same meaning that it may once have had.

When connected with the fine energies of the life force, meditation “practice” becomes more aptly thought of as meditation “dance” or meditation  “swoon”…or perhaps “dance of subtlety.”

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part VI

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When holding the exhaled breath out to a slight point of discomfort, the purpose of this exercise is to feel and track the subtle sensations that are created in the body. Please note that a slight discomfort is all that is needed to allow the mind to focus upon the very subtle sensations that are created.

As you inhale, notice the release of the slight discomfort and once again focus upon and track for as long as you can the very subtle sensations of release (the feel-good sensations) that are created.

When tracking fine sensations to their source, notice how the mind is able to focus deeply inside the body. This is an important point insofar as when you are aware of the mind connecting with subtle vibrations of the body, you now have a very different perspective on sensations that you may not have considered before.

There is also an acknowledgement that you have opened a pathway into the inner landscape of fine vibrations/sensations. Another way of considering this is that when you are feeling into fine sensations that you’ve not given much thought of before, then you’ve created a small “aha!” kind of experience.

This is a small “aha!” experience in the beginning because when you first feel into fine sensations, you will most likely also connect with what might initially feel like “intimations” of the primal vastness of vibrations that are just a hairbreadth below the surface of awareness!

The bigger “AHA!” experiences come when you start to feel the connectivity of sensations to the wider field of all vibrations. For example, the vibrations felt in the hands can be felt in relationship with the vibrations of the forearms, with the upper arms, shoulders, etc., etc.

With the big “AHA!” experience comes a noticing and acknowledgment of mind going into trance states, along with an allowing and surrendering of the body to move, dance and posture itself according to how the energy (life force) wishes to express in the body.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part V

Learning to access deep states of meditative trance is not difficult when you allow yourselves to simply feel the overall resonance of the body…with the intention to follow sensations to deeper and deeper subtlety.

The initial states of meditative trance bring a noticeable slowing down of thoughts, relaxation of body and a magnetic-like inward pull of attention to what feels like the central core of the body.

You may also begin to notice a pleasant, “feel-good” sensation building up in the spine, along with a spontaneously-occurring uplift of the eyes in their sockets. The “uplift” feeling also happens in the spine.

As you gain greater facility with feeling into and surrendering to these subtle sensations, you will find your mind/consciousness going into one-pointed focus, as the growing Bliss Resonance fills the entire experience of Being!

The feeling of the Bliss Resonance begins as a most subtle “feel-good” sensation that seems to vibrate delicately in the spine. This too, is not difficult to experience…it just requires a setting aside of any resistance to vibrations that are slightly below the surface of familiar and seemingly insignificant sensations.

When going into meditative trance, you will notice the eyes naturally lifting upwards…along with a spontaneous uplift of the spine. This “uplift” energy has a feel-good sensation connected with it.

How to connect with this “feel-good” sensation? There are many ways, but one that I suggest is this: take a deep breath…exhale, relax…and then keep the breath out until you begin to feel the need to breathe in again. However, for purposes of this exercise, keep the breath out slightly longer…feel a subtle giddiness arise…and then breathe in deeply, exhale and tune into the subtle “feel-good” sensation that accompanies the satisfying of the need for breath.

For as long as you can, focus upon the subtle, pleasant feeling that comes with the satisfying of the need for breath. A deeper connection with this feeling is developed as you follow it to its source.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part IV

There is another approach that allows a different pathway to connecting with the fine currents that move through spine and body.

Clap your hands three times and then rest them with palms up on the lap. Feel the reverberations in the hands that have just been activated. Close your eyes and continue to feel the vibrations as they begin to dissipate.

Notice what happens to your awareness as you focus on the vibrations in your hands. Notice and acknowledge to yourself that you have the ability to track and feel into sensations as they get more and more subtle.

As the sensations get softer and more subtle, notice that you can easily continue to maintain awareness of the vibrations indefinitely. You might also begin to notice the vibrations in adjacent areas of the wrist, forearm and upper arm.

When you are able to feel the subtle vibrations of adjacent areas, you will also begin to apprehend the connectivity of vibrations with the rest of the body…from hands to wrists, to forearms, arms, shoulders, etc. You will feel your whole body as a wave of vibration, like an underground reverberation!

Spend long periods of time basking in the subtle reverberations, the resonance of all that you feel! This is a delicate state of awareness but not difficult to experience.

I believe that it just requires a slight shift in approach when feeling into sensations: that there are no insignificant sensations! Any sensation, when followed to deeper and deeper subtlety, can be felt in relation to the vibrations of the other body parts…and ultimately as part of the overall resonance of the entire body!

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