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Surviving the Meltdown – Conspiracy of Time

This is a repost of an article I wrote over 10 years ago. The information seems to be even more timely now considering all that is transpiring across the globe with the fears and concerns regarding the Covid-19 global pandemic.

The following post with Higher Self addresses the “Zeitgeist,” or spirit of the times. It also speaks of the dream nature of time itself.

Global catastrophes, economic meltdowns, viral pandemics, World War III, etc., etc. are ominous threats that seem to loom just on the horizon, all adding to the dreaded fear that many people feel so very closely at this time. Surviving the meltdown is part of the zeitgeist of this particular era as we move closer to 2012 (as can be witnessed by the many websites and books that address this topic of survival). And yet there is also a feeling held by a growing number of individuals throughout the world that much of the upheaval is part of the birthing process of a New Consciousness, a frequency shift in our evolution as Co-Creators moving towards higher dimensions of Being.

Changes are happening quickly on the macro as well as the micro levels. Old belief systems that no longer serve you, both spiritual and secular, are crumbling–as they must–in order for the souls living during this time to progress beyond the hypnotic spell cast upon humanity asleep in the illusions of time and caught in the narrow dimensions of ego identity.

As fearful egos lost in the maelstrom of time, there seems to be no end to the ongoing nightmare of suffering, and yet a Great Awakening is upon the world as individuals begin to shake in resonance with the Divine Song that calls all souls to awaken to and remember their unique gifts of Love. Souls are casting aside as never before the shackles and straightjackets of narrow bigotry fostered through the generations by hearts corrupted by greed and soulless attachments to power and money.

Those who choose to remain asleep, who will not release attachments to the nightmare will remain in that realm of dark struggle until they are ready to move forward.

The you of worldly dimension lives in the realm where time is so powerful that it induces ways of thinking and acting in the world that is limiting and constraining. As you begin to live more and more naturally in the consciousness of Now, you will come to experience the world of time as just one dimension of your existence within the infinitely wider sphere of the Higher Self, beyond time and physical constraints.

Move and dance, write and draw; going from word to word, movement to movement, feeling to feeling without stopping the flow of awareness. As you lessen your desire to tightly control and mentally edit, the awareness will expand and merge into the vast backdrop of your True Nature. In this dimension of Being, there is no grappling or fighting with Self. It is all part of the larger “Dance of Creation.” It is all part of the Divine Song of the Cosmic River that flows effortlessly towards the Ocean of Freedom!

Enjoy and allow yourselves to remain in this state for as long as you wish. There is then no stopping the flow of what wishes to express. Stay in this place of deep wonderment and mystery, expanding and allowing the awareness to merge with the creative energy that swirls within and all around you.

No matter what you do in the world, the call of your Soul will ever beckon you to walk in alignment with your Authentic Self, which is a unique expression of the gifts you were born to express in Life.

The world of time exists in a consciousness that is fragmented and narrow. It supposes limitation and linear movement of energy and constraints of cause and effect. The body and consciousness appear to be confined solely to this plane of existence only when the awareness has bought completely into its illusion and attaches to it as being the only “reality.”

When the Soul begins to awaken even a little, the consciousness begins to understand its Self within a wider spectrum of “realities” that include and yet is not limited by narrow constraints of time and space. It is then able to act and respond to certain “crises” in the worldly arena without succumbing to the fears and very “real” events that take place with regularity on the earthly plane.

There are so many levels to the worldly dream…the narrow identity to body and place in time is but a dream dimension that is ongoing and repetitive. Caught in the energy loop of the recurring nightmare of suffering, this is the entanglement that the billions of souls struggle with on this particular planet.

And yet the entanglement is not a web made from steel. They are, rather, made from the gossamer strands of belief forms humankind has clung to through countless generations: “fight or be killed; win at all costs; amass a fortune to be happy; only the strong survive…” And the structures of fear built around these beliefs continue to condemn humanity to ones of violence and wars.

And yet, is there true safety in the world? The body will pass on sooner or later, as it must, in order for the soul to learn the many lessons offered in the dimensions of time and space. However, the observable world of disease, suffering, wars and death also contains the experiences of Love, joy, happiness and peace.

The world may be shaking with violence and wars, and yet the choice to live in the dimension of Love is the true shelter. Its power is not less strong than the barbs of anger and bigotry; of missiles and bombs. It is just that humanity as a whole has not learned to harness its powers as an answer to the recurring nightmare of wars.

Enter the Great Stillness, the Great Love, and feel the vibrations within. The Cosmic Music plays on and on, in ever-changing beauty and grace. From moment to moment, the energy moves to express and create.

If you allow yourselves to calmly observe and to deeply feel, the energy gathers momentum and power as there will be no constriction or tightness around it. It will be like waking up from a deep sleep, sloughing off the dusty veils that have kept the mind in one place and in one way of thinking. The environment then takes on a clarity and brightness, as though lit from within by a gentle light of protection.

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Surrendering to the Cosmic Dance, Part X

Cosmic Mother - Artwork by Bruce Manaka

Cosmic Mother – Artwork by Bruce Manaka

When your mind is “tuned” into subtle vibrations that move delicately in the central core/channel of the spine, the “spotlight” of your mind is turned inwardly. The intention is to connect with finer and finer sensations…sensations normally ignored because they are so subtle.

With the mind connected to subtlety, you are given glimpses of the flighty, superficial mind ”doing its thing” of bouncing around…but you are not attached to it. You are offered the gift of perspective that is not identified with the superficial, “monkey-mind.”

From this unique perspective of the inwardly flowing attention, the mind can be observed doing its thing of bouncing around, “firing-off” thoughts, memories, etc. However, you observe as though from a distance, without attaching or identifying with them!

From this feeling-centered perspective, you will begin to notice layer upon layers of sensations and subtle reverberations that percolate up into your awareness. All that is required is that you simply hold intention to feel into finer and finer sensations! Not so much any specific sensation, but rather the overall sensation of all that you feel in the moment.

The “overall sensation” of your body begins to then “resolve” or “refine” to a wider resonance (or Hum) that seems to be sourced at the central core or channel of the spine. The sensation is like a microscopic thread vibrating in the spine, creating an uplifting, blissful experience that activates the body to twist and contort spontaneously in dance-like movements, reminiscent of Balinese or belly dance!

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Surrendering to the Cosmic Dance, Part IX

Ideals such as enlightenment, God, samadhi, satori, spiritual freedom, etc. may be lofty and worthy concepts to include in prayers/intentions, but not so practical when it comes to simply being, feeling in the moment.

When feeling into the overall vibration/sensation of the moment, any expectation or lofty assumption regarding the experience may create an unnecessary and unwanted barrier in the primal experience of Being.

There is a divine simplicity in feeling into finer and finer sensations…no expectations, assumptions, judgements, etc. Just the experience of the overall sensation of Being!

At first the mind may resist, defaulting to habits of constantly engaging with outer desires and distractions. In other words, it “bounces” around in constant motion, disengaged from the underlying subtle currents.

It resists going against the tidal pull of the habitual patterns that keeps the mind in perpetual engagement with the superficial and boisterous waves of the Earthly drama.

How to disengage the mind from its preoccupation with the superficial drama? I believe it is important to understand the concept of “pattern disrupt.” What I mean by this is that so long as we remain on the surface of habitual thinking and feeling, the momentum of habits will keep us caught in the “patterns” of superficial thinking and feeling.

Now, the idea of “pattern disrupt” is one that tunes us to a different “resonance” or “pattern” of consciousness…mainly subtle sensations. Feeling into subtle sensations provides the “pattern disrupt.”

Pattern disrupt provides a different perspective…one that switches from being “thought-centered” to “feeling-centered.” With the intention to feel into finer and finer sensations, the momentum of awareness shifts away from superficial “bouncing around.”

It shifts to one that is able to not only observe the flittering of the mind, but to one that is also able to feel the subtle currents deep in the spine.

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Focusing the Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part III

The mind’s habit of wanting to define and distill meaning to all experiences, even ones of a transcendent nature, can get in the way of going deeper into the subtle vibrations of the energetic field of the body.

The constant mind “chatter” seems to be a “symptom” of earth and body density. At least in my experience, when I just observe my mind, there is a constant “firing off” of thoughts, memories, desires, likes/dislikes, etc. Mental activity of all kinds!

This is what the mind seemingly cannot help but do when caught in the strong tidal pull of Earth density. If there is no intention or inclination to explore beyond the “matrix” of the worldly resonance we find ourselves in, then there is not much chance to experience states of consciousness beyond the proverbial “corner” that we “paint ourselves into” along with the belief that, “This is the reality of all that is!”

What I believe happens is that the overall vibration of body, mind, psyche and sense of self resonate at a certain range of frequencies…and this overall vibration creates the conscious range of how we experience the world. As long as the predominant frequency range remains within the density of the Earthly dimension, the body/mind/psyche will experience only what is within range of the worldly resonance.

Consider this: during sleep our minds access a very different state of consciousness (or frequency range). The day-to-day world falls away and our minds cease to “process” in the ways that we are familiar with during waking state. The awareness shifts when “tuned” to different resonant fields.

Normally we are not aware of these subtle shifts, such as when we fall asleep, because the patterns of awareness developed over a period of a lifetime makes the transitions a seamless shift from one state of consciousness to another. We fall asleep without noticing the transitional states of consciousness.

Also, because it is so seamless, we may not ever consider exploring the subtle states of consciousness as we fall asleep…or when we sit in meditation. Why would we? Our habitual patterns are so automatic, why would we even consider the subtleties of what we do naturally everyday?

Well, the whole purpose of meditation or mindfulness practice is to be able to focus upon these very fine subtle “transitional” states of consciousness, feeling into what we would normally not consider very interesting or significant.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part XII

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To me it seems that the “busy-ness” of mind, as well as its habitual patterns of thinking and relating to the world, makes it a little too easy to slip into mindless thinking and acting that keep us insulated from the finer vibrations and energies flowing so deliciously in the spine and rest of the body!

Our habitual patterns, over a period of many years (and perhaps a lifetime), become like a freight train that is not so easy to stop or change course.

However, it just takes repeated intentions of noticing sensations to finer and finer levels of subtlety in order to shift “tracks” of a mind that seems so intractable. A mind that is “locked” into a certain range of thinking and behaving may not want to consider exploring things outside what it has become accustomed to, that has no meaning or point of interest in terms of its familiar mindset.

The point is that the mind, through its “day-to-day-to-day” habit patterns has created the “spectrum” of how we think/feel/act…and like a train moving along familiar tracks, we get comfortable with what is predictable and “safe.”

The momentum over many years (and perhaps a lifetime) of feeling, thinking and acting within certain parameters, creates the thinnest of veils that prevents the mind from exploring sensations that are just below the “veneer” of the mind’s unwillingness to feel deeply.

In my experience, I believe I did not truly “get” (understand) the significance of simply feeling into the overall sensation of the body. This approach may sound too simple…and accordingly my mind resisted, would not allow placing so much attention on feelings!

Part of the “problem” for me was that my mind was, for years, going down the “tracks” of a monastic lifestyle that included very high ideals of meditation practice and codes of behavior. Not that there is anything wrong with monastic lifestyle or having high ideals, etc.

It is my belief now that whenever the mind gets “caught” on any track of thinking/feeling/behaving, no matter how lofty the “tracks” may seem, if the mind ceases to consider or feel the wider energetic field beyond its narrow perspective, then this becomes a “problem.”

For me, when the monastic lifestyle “track” came crumbling down, it allowed me a visceral experience of wild and primal energies at work in my life. Learning to work with these chaotic and volatile energies required a relinquishment of belief systems around spirituality and concepts about enlightenment/satori/samadhi, Kundalini, the guru-disciple relationship, etc. etc.

I believe these were all helpful in the beginning, but at a certain point, when actually connecting with primal energies, it all goes down the drain! They all lose meaning.

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part XI

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I would like to elaborate a bit more on the “pattern disrupt” of the mind that seems to be required in order to feel the subtle currents in the spine, not only during periods of meditation but anytime you wish to connect with them…standing in line at the market, sitting at the coffee shop, while driving, etc.

The point is that when connecting consciously with the infinitely fine, bliss-imparting sensations, you will also understand how close this primal vibration has always been…and how simple it is to remain connected!

The process of feeling the subtle currents in the spine is simple…but ironically most difficult when we do not allow ourselves enough time to “hold” the fine vibrations just long enough to feel their connections with the wider and more expansive resonance of the Bliss Vibration.

The mind gets in the way. It does not wish to let itself go into the primal experience of feelings. It remains stuck in patterns of thoughts and memories (mind chatter) that it has grown accustomed to, with little or no inclination to explore the finer realms just below the surface.

In my experience, even though I may have had the intention to feel into subtle sensations/vibrations during meditation practice, it is apparent now that I did not give enough import to the seemingly insignificant sensations moving through my body, sensations that were subtle yet familiar.

As I’ve mentioned elsewhere, there are no insignificant sensations! Any sensation can be a potential pathway connecting you with the most subtle realms of mystical beauty!

I think it ironic that for me, the shift in mind, the “pattern disrupt” did not come through meditation practice, but rather through the pain of illness, specifically the flu.

For years I had maintained a desire and intention to go deep in meditation, to connect with “Kundalini.” I kept a strict meditation practice everyday, many times a day…but it was just not enough to connect with the subtle realms.

Suffering from the flu provided my mind the “pattern disrupt” that it needed to shake me from my familiar state of awareness. Of course I was in pain and my mind was in a kind of trance-like state.

The familiar sensations of the body felt “off”…and this put my mind in an unusual mode. The sensations felt familiar and not-so-familiar at the same time!

This was a very different perspective on what I would normally not give much attention to, but it created something of a “cascading” affect on my mind that finally allowed itself to follow sensations to finer and finer points of subtlety!

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Connecting With the Bliss Resonance, Part X

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As mentioned in the previous post, it was “for want of feeling slightly below my familiar set of sensations…” that I spent years in meditation practice without connecting deeply with subtle sensations and vibrations…the oh-so-important “stepping stones” to deeper and deeper meditations.

These “stepping stones” of subtle sensations are like connecting pieces that opens you up to the visceral experience of the “Om Vibration,” the resonance of exquisitely fine vibrations.

I found that the “subtle sensations” in the body (and spine) are readily accessible and easily felt by our sensitive nervous systems. From my perspective I can describe the process as this: feeling into the overall sensation of the body…and then feeling slightly deeper…and then slightly deeper, etc.

This approach sounds easy enough to do…and I believe that it truly is. However, if there is any difficulty in accessing the subtle realms/vibrations in the body, it is in the mind’s resistance to feeling deeply.

Of course we all have the capacity to feel deeply, as evidenced whenever we have emotional outbursts of joy, sadness, anger, etc. My suggestion here is to use this capacity (to feel deeply) with intention… to follow sensations to finer and finer points of subtlety. Following just the sensation!

Now, what I mean by the mind’s “resistance” to feeling deeply is the habitual pattern of the mind to follow the trail of thoughts and memories that are connected with the sensations…instead of just focusing on the sensation/vibration.

l found that as I began focusing on just the overall sensation of the body, the mind would begin to relax and the thoughts would slow down, with occasional moments (flashes) when thoughts would stop altogether.

These momentary flashes of “no-thought,” as fleeting as they were, imparted intimations of the vastly wide and deep “Bliss Resonance.” I think of these “intimations” as a kind of “pattern disrupt” that shifts the body and mind to a very different relationship with the Life Force (the energies moving through the body)…and how we interact with sensations/vibrations.

Normally we do not pay much attention to our familiar, “day-to-day” set of sensations. We do not give much thought to the overall vibration of Being. There does not seem to be any reason or purpose for doing so.

Of course, whenever we are in physical or emotional pain, our attention is drawn towards the feelings of pain, usually with reactivity…wanting to be free of the pain.

Now, it is easier to feel into subtle sensations when the body and mind are fairly calm and free of pain. However, the very practice of feeling into subtle sensations has a practical benefit of easing physical and emotional pain, even if just a little.

This can be a challenge because when we are in pain, the last thing we want to do is to tune into and feel deeper into the pain! For this reason it is important to experience the process of tuning into subtle sensations when the body and mind are fairly stable and free of pain.

I remember suffering severely from the intense pain of sciatica and nothing seemed to help, even my practice of tuning into the subtle sensations. The pain was like a “bull-in-the-china shop” of any connection that I may have had with fine vibrations.

However, I found it interesting that I could feel two simultaneous “rivers” of sensations: one that was intensely painful and the other one that had a kind of “underground” reverberation that was comforting. It did not free me of pain, but it shifted my reactivity to it.

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Focusing Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part XVI

When you truly “get” and viscerally experience the bliss component of subtle (and yet familiar) sensations, then meditation technique may shift to accommodate how the Life Force wishes to move in the spine and rest of the body.

For example, the form, technique and “practice” of meditation may become more like a spontaneous “dance” of “micro-movements” as you attune deeper and deeper with the growing experience of the Bliss Resonance.

The refinement of this energy happens naturally as you become familiar with the push/pull/play of its most delicate movements. The play and dance with these subtle energies happens as you tune into the “feel-good” sensations that can be connected with and that are vibrating ever-so-delicately in any posture or movement that you assume.

These “feel-good” sensations can be as simple as the pleasant feelings you experience when you yawn or stretch, or when you exhale after taking a deep breath. The point I am making is to tune into (feel) the most delicate and subtle sensations of the “uplifting,” pleasant currents.

As you deeply feel into the fine sensations, notice what happens to the mind/consciousness. It is in noticing the small increments of the shifts in awareness that allows an opening into feeling the wider underlying vibration…and this underlying sensation feels like an ever-expanding “Glory.”

The Bliss sensation is like a deep underground reverberation. Regarding any expectations or beliefs in what Bliss is, it is important to not let the expectations or beliefs get in the way. The mind usually expects/seeks the “big bang” experience…Satori, Enlightenment…or at least what it believes these experiences are and because of this it may not pay attention to the subtle and seemingly insignificant sensations that are easily accessible.

There is a paradox when it comes to the experience of Bliss, that such a life-transforming sensation is created when feeling into sublimely subtle vibrations!

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Focusing Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part XIV

When tuning into the subtle “nudges” of the life force, as felt in the spine during meditation, you may find yourself naturally lifting/stretching the spine upwards…because it feels good to allow the expanding energies an unimpeded pathway to flow in the spine. You will then viscerally understand the recommendation of meditation technique to “keep the spine straight.”

However, what technique does not normally describe or suggest is how to feel into the infinitely subtle sensations that “nudge” the body to move/adjust/dance in nuanced micro-movements…while keeping the spine erect.

When deeply listening and feeling into the Life Force (Kundalini), in the beginning you may feel a growing sensation of “giddiness.” As you go slightly deeper, you will come to understand these sensations as a kind of “nudge” or “tap-on-the-shoulders” so-to-speak.

At that point you may intuitively relax and surrender to the lead of what is calling for your attention. You will then learn to enjoy the Cosmic Dance that the body and mind take up with the Life Force/Kundalini!

Also, the body will naturally assume certain postures, your hands/fingers will take up certain “mudras, all on their own, as you relax and surrender to the increasingly blissful inner sensations. These postures and mudras are spontaneous “shapes” and “geometries” that the body takes up as it falls into alignment/resonance with the Divine Vibration that moves through the energetic field of the body.

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Focusing Mind for Deeper Meditation, Part XII

When focusing the mind in meditation, there are no insignificant sensations, as they can all be potential entry points in connecting with the underlying resonance of the Divine Subtlety.

Every posture, every nuance of movement can be connected with the underlying “hum” of creation. This vibration/hum is the distilled essence of all that is felt in the body…and what is deeply felt has a way of focusing the mind!

This hum/vibration includes not only the familiar sensations of the inhaling and exhaling breath, the heartbeat, the weight of the body, etc., but it also includes the not-so-familiar sensations of fine vibrations and reverberations that are accessible but normally not considered.

Mind is like a liquid that fills the container of the body. What you feel can then be infinitely distilled to a most subtle essence…and this essence is experienced as a sensation that puts mind and body into a most delicious swoon!

When the body/mind/psyche enter into meditative trance/swoon, the feeling of the inner squeezing, contortion of the body, is like a churning of “cream” (of life force) in the spine until the “butter” of essence is created. The experience is felt as a ravishing pulsation of sweetness that radiates through the energetic field of the body.

The body/mind, when it “touches” the underlying “hum,” will begin to vibrate in resonance with the powerful current. The mind will be as riveted, focused upon the growing inner sensation that seems to naturally “push” energy upwards in the spine to the crown area.

Understand that the above experience can be described in a number of ways. For example: a giant snake spiraling up and around the spine, squeezing the energy to the crown area. Or…like taffy being pulled to infinite thinness up the spine.

There are numerous traditions describing the movement of the Divine Essence, Life Force, Kundalini in the body and spine. The important point to note is that these traditions (along with their meditative techniques) can be helpful when you actually connect with these infinitely subtle currents.

However, I don’t believe that techniques can impart the experience in a linear, step-by-step progression. They can be helpful in the beginning to establish intention, prayer and discipline, but at a certain point, the rigid practice of technique can get in the way. The Life Force, Kundalini, is such a wild, primal, oftentimes chaotic, disassembling force/energy! The pathway to it is not a neat and tidy, linear and logical, step-by-step process!

With this in mind, once you do have the connection, you will recognize how to use technique to deepen your attunement with this primal Life Force.

I do believe that meditation technique can be useful to prepare the body/mind/psyche for when Kundalini begins to tear your life apart, when it disassembles it, for purposes of putting it back together in a better way.

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