The energy of Kundalini, when awakened in the spine and nervous system, has a definite feel, texture and movement, notably different from sensations previously experienced.
When She moves strongly, It is like being gripped or squeezed by a serpentine-like energy that builds to an ecstatic contortion in the spine. When She moves subtly, a very sweet and delicate focus is created…a tuning into what feels like the finest pulsations/waves that scintillate in the central core of the spine. It is like playing with molecules/atoms, gravitational forces…a push/pull/play of energetic currents moving in infinite subtlety!
Now, when Kundalini begins to shift or break things down in our lives that are not in resonance with Her Vibration, circumstances can show up in ways that test us to our limits. It can be argued that Life in general will do the same. Why differentiate between Kundalini initiated “breakdowns” and plain old life circumstances gone wild?
In my experience, Kundalini fosters a deeper connection with our Life Force, with our bodies, minds, psyches…with the subtle energies moving through the spine and rest of the body. This deeper connection seems to create a sensitivity to anything that is not in alignment with the powerful frequencies of Kundalini.
Because Kundalini has a particular vibration and feel in our bodies, anything that is not in resonance with Her seems to get shaken up, broken down, dissolved. This process can go on for a long time, depending on how deeply ensconced the out-of-alignment (toxic) patterns are.