Goodbye to Our Yurt in the Redwoods: Lessons from the Fire

Although the memories of what was lost to the fires can at times bring moments of sadness, the sweetness of all that is most important in our lives remains untouched and in stark contrast to what at first seemed so dark and unfathomable!

Patty and I are grateful for all the love and support that you’ve showered us with…grateful for the “lifeline” that you’ve been for us during these difficult times!

If we’ve learned anything from the fires, it is not so much about what it had taken away, but in what it revealed to us about the heart and human spirit!

To see our beautiful yurt and material possessions reduced to rubble and ash initially brought up feelings of shock, sadness and uncertainty. But in witnessing the devastating losses suffered by so many families in the larger community, it allowed us to see the connectivity of hearts moving together in the common bonds of grief and loss…and their ultimate transcendence to love and compassion! People helping people during times of greatest need!

We send our love and prayers to the many families who have lost so much to the fires and who have children and animals in their care! We also give thanks to the firefighters and first responders who risked their lives and saved countless homes from being destroyed!

When driving in and around our neighborhood, it touched our hearts to see the many hand-made signs on the streets and highways giving thanks to the brave firefighters! The CZU August Lightning Fire Complex is now 100% contained! Yay! Whew! and Thank God!

It has been over a month since our evacuation saga began and the magnitude of all that we need to do in the months and years ahead can be daunting, but Patty and I shall not forget your love and support and will forever remember the lessons that we’ve learned from fire…that it’s power is not so much in its capacity to destroy and devastate, but rather in what it reveals to us about the heart and the resilient human spirit!

Including here photos taken by those in the Boulder Creek Community.

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Goodbye to Our Yurt in the Redwoods

This post will be a departure from the kind of article I usually write.

My wife, Patty and I were forced to evacuate our home in the Redwoods on the evening of August 18 after hearing someone shouting through a megaphone from a helicopter circling over our home to “Leave immediately!”

A couple of days earlier, Northern California experienced a most unusual thunderstorm that produced close to 11,000 bolts of lightning, which then caused hundreds of fires.

At the time (it was still dark), Patty and I sat outside on the porch to enjoy the light show that lit up the skies. Little did we know of the impending danger that would build into what we now know of as the CZU August Lightning Complex Fires!

As smoke started to fill the air, we packed our cars quickly with essential items and drove down the mountain to safety.

Unfortunately, we received notice nine days later that our beloved home was destroyed by the fires. Many of our neighbors also lost their homes. According to CalFire, 925 homes have been lost to date.

Up until that point of getting the dreaded news, we understood the very real possibility of our place being destroyed, but we held onto hope and prepared ourselves as best we could for either outcomes.

However, when it was confirmed that our home was destroyed in the fires, it was like getting kicked in the gut! I had to read the message many times, as it seemed that my body and mind needed time to “catch up” with the enormity of what I was reading.

After much support of family and friends, the initial shock of losing our home shifted into feelings of gratitude for the outpouring of love that was being showered upon us.

In our rush to evacuate, I made sure to pack my singing bowls and other sound healing instruments. However, because of the large size of my guitar and digeridoo, I was not able to pack them and so they were lost to the fires.

By strange “coincidence” it just so happened that we received the unfortunate news the evening before my birthday, so Patty took me out the next day to buy me a new guitar! Ha! Patty was not going to let the loss of our home get in the way of celebrating my bday!

Later that evening my relatives, who lovingly opened their home to us, gave me a birthday dinner as a way to celebrate “New Beginnings.”

It felt kind of surreal, but I must say it was the best birthday party I had ever experienced! And up until the fires, Patty and I have both agreed that this had been by far the best summer of our lives! We called it our “Summer of Love!”

Ironically, due to the Covid shutdown, we had a chance to spend most of our waking hours sitting quietly beneath the beautiful Redwoods and walking the trails close by.

We created altars upon the land and offered prayers and offerings to the Divine Spirit, so strongly felt!

And that is how Patty and I are approaching this period of our lives. Although it was deeply sad to lose our home and most of our belongings, there has also been a kind of undercurrent of something new that is wanting to be born in our lives.

Patty and I are taking things one day at a time and planning next steps, listening and feeling deeply as we move forward on the path that unfolds before us.

We are deeply grateful to our friend, Amy Martin, for putting together a GoFundMe campaign to help raise funds for us to rebuild our lives!

For those who are able to we would deeply appreciate donations and/or sharing of our GoFundMe campaign to your community of friends. Will include the link here:
gf.me/u/yv2xi4

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Covid-19 and Global Transformation—We Are “No Longer In Kansas!” Part IV

The global battle with Covid-19 seems to be another layer or wedge added to the growing polarity (socially, economically, politically) so evident in the world today.

Metaphorically, Covid-19 can be thought of as an infection of mind brought on by the contagion of fear, whipped into a frenzy by the polarity of sides taken: Democrat/Republican, Globalist/Nationalist, Pro-Trump/Anti-Trump, Pro Vaccine/Anti-Vaccine, etc. etc….and it is so seductive to focus upon, engage with and “take-a-stand” somewhere along that spectrum of polarity!

It is one thing to stay informed about all that is going on in the world, but certainly another thing when the news (and its polarity-creating sensationalism) whips up the emotions, creating reactions of fear, anger, blame, panic, etc.

As I mentioned in the previous post, besides the intense polarity that is going on in the world, there also seems to be an undercurrent of subtle vibrations that are moving through the Earth at this time.

These “subtle vibrations” can be felt in sharp contrast with the polarity that is raging in the world. For me, connecting with this underlying current is like remaining in the “eye-of-the-storm,” where the mind and emotions remain quiet, unperturbed by the “storm” of polarity raging all around.

The point that I am making here is that, during these outwardly tumultuous times, brought on by the threat of Covid-19, humanity as a whole has an unprecedented opportunity to connect with and feel the exquisitely subtle and yet transformative underlying currents of the Primal Bliss Resonance.

In my opinion, the intensity of the polarity storm has made it easier to viscerally access our “center,” the “eye-of-the-storm” where body, mind, spirit remain focused, still…held in resonance with the Bliss Vibration.

All that is required is to feel deeply into your center. The Bliss Resonance is strong during this time and can be connected with more readily if you make up your mind to disengage with polarity (of blaming, shaming, judging, etc.).

Polarity is strong, seductive, enticing and the mind and life force can easily succumb to its siren call…if we allow it to. Just understand that there is another “Voice” that is making itself known to you right alongside the crude belching of polarity. This other “Voice” is an upwelling of the Bliss Resonance calling you home to center!

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Covid-19 and Global Transformation—We Are “No Longer In Kansas!” Part III

The Covid-19 Pandemic has given rise to a whole spectrum of reactions and narratives: from outbursts of fearful reactivity to creative and helpful responsiveness. In a sense, our reactions to Covid-19 can be thought of as a kind of individual and global litmus test of our psyches and emotional maturity.

In other words, where do we place our attention and energies when faced with the threat of Covid-19? Where do we go emotionally? Do we lash out in fear, blame, reactivity, panic? Do we get emotionally and energetically shut down? Or do we respond creatively by focusing on steps that are within our power to take now and in the days/weeks ahead?

Although there is understandably a great deal of fear and anxiety “in the air,” there is also a massive amount of positivity that can be witnessed and felt. Individuals and businesses are “stepping up” in so many creative and helpful ways.

The internet and social media has made it possible to witness and experience—from the relative isolation of our living spaces—the global spectrum of reactions, from very dark to transcendently light.

I suppose the important question is, “Where does our individual attention and energy fall on the spectrum of reactions?” There is something that I’m noticing.

The degree of polarity in the world, that has always been present (politically, socially, economically, racially, religiously, etc.), has risen to a fever pitch as I’ve never seen before. Covid-19 seems to be just another layer that has been added to the “mix,” further polarizing those who are stuck on the “seesaw” of emotional reactivity.

To me there also seems to be an undercurrent of an exquisitely fine vibration that is becoming more and more apparent even as the polarity in the world gets wider and wider. Sides are being taken, lines are being drawn, an inner and outer war of cosmic proportions is being staged!

What is this “fine vibration?” It can be felt as a thread-like vibration running up and down the central channel of the spine. It imparts a most delicious sensation of upliftment, of balance and centeredness!

This vibration has always been available, but to me, especially during these times, there seems to have been an uptick in its amplitude, making it much easier to feel…if I do not get caught up in the “trap” of polarity.

In a sense, the strong polarity that is raging in the world is like a monstrous storm that can easily suck up all our time, energy and life force if we attach to any part its polarity. However, because the intensity of the “storm” is so fast-spinning, it makes it easier to viscerally locate “center” when we choose to focus upon and move towards our central core,  the “eye-of-the-storm.”

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Covid-19 and Global Transformation—We Are “No Longer In Kansas!” Part II

There is a global/collective focus on Covid-19 that has caught the attention of the entire world, holding us mesmerized by the “invisible” threat that it represents. Strangers, neighbors, relatives, all pose as potential carriers of this “unseen enemy.” And so we hunker down, shelter-in-place, doing our best to adjust to a life that will not be “business-as-usual” for the unforeseeable future.

As mentioned in the previous post, I believe there is so much more going on below the surface than what is presented by our collective focus and fight with Covid-19.

In my opinion, although this pandemic is not an “extinction level” event, it does represent a global “wake-up” call, a “shot-across-the-bow” so-to-speak.

It is a full-on “Stop!”…a kind of “two-by-four” across the head that is meant to shake us out of the collective trance that keeps us walking in lock-step with the insatiable corporate machines of avarice and greed! Like vampiric entities, they feed upon our life force!

In a bizarre kind of way, Covid-19 is perhaps Nature’s way of saying, “Stop the madness now!” We have gone so far down the tracks of our collective psychoses, so deeply out of balance with Nature and Spirit that it seems to require a severe shaking to stop us in our tracks! Will we listen? Will we reevaluate our directions in life? That is for each of us to ponder.

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Covid-19 and Global Transformation—We Are “No Longer In Kansas!” Part I

I can imagine that for many of you, these times of massive uncertainty (brought on by the threat of Covid-19) did not come so much as a surprise or shock, but rather with a recognition and knowingness of what this time in history represents: global transformation!

There is a sense that the “other shoe has dropped,” and that we are “no longer in Kansas” so-to-speak! We may not have known how this “event” would show up, but there has been an intuitive sense that this is what we have been waiting for, that this is what all our dreams and visions have been pointing towards.

Also, like many of you, I believe there is so much more going on beneath the surface than what is represented by Humanity’s collective focus upon and battle with Covid-19. To me, Covid-19 is a creation of Humanity’s inability or unwillingness to heal the collective inner darkness brought on by the “viruses” of anger, hatred, greed, fear and violence.

There is an overload (built up through generations) of dark and toxic energies that must be collectively purged before healing can take place. All that we have refused to face and heal within ourselves has now manifested outwardly in a form that we can now point our finger towards and label as “enemy,” but in so doing, we miss the opportunity to understand the part we have each played in creating an outer representation, an “unseen enemy,” of what we so fear and refuse to acknowledge within ourselves.

Of course the virus represents a very real threat and must be dealt with to minimize suffering and death, but the point that I am making here is that it would be a pity to not “get” the unique opportunity that is presented side-by-side with the threat.

Things are not meant to return back to “normal,” back to the insane imbalance and collective hypnosis that keeps us blind and unaware of all the trauma and societal toxins that are being brought to the surface during this time.

If defeating this “unseen enemy” represents a return to our “normal” state of imbalance with Nature, with ourselves and others, then this “victory” would be short-lived. It would have served to only drive the darkness back into the gaping hole of our wounded selves.

Out-of-sight and out-of-mind, the “unseen enemy” is given carte blanche to fester and grow until it resurfaces with ever-greater velocity and force, to inject its venom once again into its unsuspecting host!

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Surviving the Meltdown – Conspiracy of Time

This is a repost of an article I wrote over 10 years ago. The information seems to be even more timely now considering all that is transpiring across the globe with the fears and concerns regarding the Covid-19 global pandemic.

The following post with Higher Self addresses the “Zeitgeist,” or spirit of the times. It also speaks of the dream nature of time itself.

Global catastrophes, economic meltdowns, viral pandemics, World War III, etc., etc. are ominous threats that seem to loom just on the horizon, all adding to the dreaded fear that many people feel so very closely at this time. Surviving the meltdown is part of the zeitgeist of this particular era as we move closer to 2012 (as can be witnessed by the many websites and books that address this topic of survival). And yet there is also a feeling held by a growing number of individuals throughout the world that much of the upheaval is part of the birthing process of a New Consciousness, a frequency shift in our evolution as Co-Creators moving towards higher dimensions of Being.

Changes are happening quickly on the macro as well as the micro levels. Old belief systems that no longer serve you, both spiritual and secular, are crumbling–as they must–in order for the souls living during this time to progress beyond the hypnotic spell cast upon humanity asleep in the illusions of time and caught in the narrow dimensions of ego identity.

As fearful egos lost in the maelstrom of time, there seems to be no end to the ongoing nightmare of suffering, and yet a Great Awakening is upon the world as individuals begin to shake in resonance with the Divine Song that calls all souls to awaken to and remember their unique gifts of Love. Souls are casting aside as never before the shackles and straightjackets of narrow bigotry fostered through the generations by hearts corrupted by greed and soulless attachments to power and money.

Those who choose to remain asleep, who will not release attachments to the nightmare will remain in that realm of dark struggle until they are ready to move forward.

The you of worldly dimension lives in the realm where time is so powerful that it induces ways of thinking and acting in the world that is limiting and constraining. As you begin to live more and more naturally in the consciousness of Now, you will come to experience the world of time as just one dimension of your existence within the infinitely wider sphere of the Higher Self, beyond time and physical constraints.

Move and dance, write and draw; going from word to word, movement to movement, feeling to feeling without stopping the flow of awareness. As you lessen your desire to tightly control and mentally edit, the awareness will expand and merge into the vast backdrop of your True Nature. In this dimension of Being, there is no grappling or fighting with Self. It is all part of the larger “Dance of Creation.” It is all part of the Divine Song of the Cosmic River that flows effortlessly towards the Ocean of Freedom!

Enjoy and allow yourselves to remain in this state for as long as you wish. There is then no stopping the flow of what wishes to express. Stay in this place of deep wonderment and mystery, expanding and allowing the awareness to merge with the creative energy that swirls within and all around you.

No matter what you do in the world, the call of your Soul will ever beckon you to walk in alignment with your Authentic Self, which is a unique expression of the gifts you were born to express in Life.

The world of time exists in a consciousness that is fragmented and narrow. It supposes limitation and linear movement of energy and constraints of cause and effect. The body and consciousness appear to be confined solely to this plane of existence only when the awareness has bought completely into its illusion and attaches to it as being the only “reality.”

When the Soul begins to awaken even a little, the consciousness begins to understand its Self within a wider spectrum of “realities” that include and yet is not limited by narrow constraints of time and space. It is then able to act and respond to certain “crises” in the worldly arena without succumbing to the fears and very “real” events that take place with regularity on the earthly plane.

There are so many levels to the worldly dream…the narrow identity to body and place in time is but a dream dimension that is ongoing and repetitive. Caught in the energy loop of the recurring nightmare of suffering, this is the entanglement that the billions of souls struggle with on this particular planet.

And yet the entanglement is not a web made from steel. They are, rather, made from the gossamer strands of belief forms humankind has clung to through countless generations: “fight or be killed; win at all costs; amass a fortune to be happy; only the strong survive…” And the structures of fear built around these beliefs continue to condemn humanity to ones of violence and wars.

And yet, is there true safety in the world? The body will pass on sooner or later, as it must, in order for the soul to learn the many lessons offered in the dimensions of time and space. However, the observable world of disease, suffering, wars and death also contains the experiences of Love, joy, happiness and peace.

The world may be shaking with violence and wars, and yet the choice to live in the dimension of Love is the true shelter. Its power is not less strong than the barbs of anger and bigotry; of missiles and bombs. It is just that humanity as a whole has not learned to harness its powers as an answer to the recurring nightmare of wars.

Enter the Great Stillness, the Great Love, and feel the vibrations within. The Cosmic Music plays on and on, in ever-changing beauty and grace. From moment to moment, the energy moves to express and create.

If you allow yourselves to calmly observe and to deeply feel, the energy gathers momentum and power as there will be no constriction or tightness around it. It will be like waking up from a deep sleep, sloughing off the dusty veils that have kept the mind in one place and in one way of thinking. The environment then takes on a clarity and brightness, as though lit from within by a gentle light of protection.

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Reverberations of the Underlying Bliss Resonance, Part X

As mentioned in the previous post, the Bliss Resonance in the body starts as a subtle vibration in the spine (small like a grain of sand). It is not difficult to feel. It just requires a slight shift in how we normally “feel” into our bodies.

Normally we do not think about or consider the “overall” sensation of the body. In other words, feeling into all vibrations of the body as one resonance of sensation, one resonance of Being.

The human body and consciousness is exquisitely sensitive! This is amply confirmed by the depth of emotions and sensitivities we have to circumstances and environments. The suggestion here is to use the sensitivities (and sometimes over-sensitivities) that you already have and focus them within on finer and finer subtleties of vibrations, especially as can be felt in the central core of the spine.

Again, the Bliss Resonance is not difficult to experience! It just requires using the sensitivity that is already there and focusing it within on finer and finer vibrations…going slightly deeper, and then slightly deeper again, etc.

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Reverberations of the Underlying Bliss Resonance, Part IX

The visceral experience of the Bliss Resonance puts the mind and body into a kind of swoon, held by the “current” that moves deliciously in the spine!

This “current” is connected with by feeling into finer and finer sensations. As I’ve mentioned before, there is a paradoxical affect that occurs when feeling into the subtleties of sensations: at the same time a bliss response occurs in the spine!

The bliss response initially starts as a sensation that is small, like a “grain of sand” vibrating in the spine…and yet it has the power to draw the mind within. This subtle sensation intimates of something that is vast and mysterious…the “contortion” of the Bliss Resonance!

The mind that focuses upon the fine “grain-of-sand” of the Bliss Resonance gets drawn into what is like a current that gets stronger and stronger the deeper you go into the subtlety.

Hold to the “Divine Current!” You will come to experience the body as a conduit/lightning rod for the Divine to ground the Bliss Resonance into the vibratory space you inhabit!

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Reverberations of the Underlying Bliss Resonance, Part VIII

The Bliss Resonance, when moving through the body, holds it in its “contortion” energy. The contortion energy creates a most delicious sensation in the central core of the spine that has a way of naturally and spontaneously “dancing” or “contorting” the body.

The mind goes into meditative trance, which offers the opportunity and invitation to go deeper and deeper into the subtle realms. The body spontaneously moves/adjusts into certain postures that align with the energetic “geometries” of the ecstatic current.

The human play and identification with the body goes on…and yet, side-by-side with the physics of the the human experience, there is also the infinitely wider experience of the Divine Expansion, felt in the body as a contortion of the Bliss Resonance!

In this experience, sometimes referred to as “Kundalini Awakening,” in the initial stages there is still an ego “self” that identifies with its experiences on Planet Earth (along with all its dramas). At the same time, there is “Higher Self” that observes and experiences both Earthly and Heavenly (Bliss) realms.

When the mind and body are “held” by the energetic contortion of the Bliss Current, identification with and visceral experience of the current has a way of revealing the exquisitely subtle presence of the “Divine Observer,” the consciousness that “peeks” through as the body and mind are held in the contortion field of the Bliss Resonance!

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